grandiloquence

i feel like i’m running out of choices, one by one they’re slipping away. when i’ve found myself to be trapped previously, as if i have no choices, i usually always find a way out of my situation. i feel cornered again. i think life was always narrowing down on me, though.

with this, i have to find a new way out.  suicide is always at the back of my mind. i genuinely feel like committing suicide is my only option. it’s not that i don’t value life itself, or don’t have appreciation for it, it’s beautiful. but my life is valueless. worthless. it’s already evident […]

I’ve moved around a lot all my life. I would say that I’ve had about 7 childhood homes? I’ve lived in about 5 more houses, and I’m about to move again. Considering I’m only 16, it’s so much. A lot of people don’t have to constantly shift areas, they can just live in their childhood homes up until they leave school. Or maybe they’ll move once or twice. Sometimes I wonder how it would’ve been to have a stable place. It’s more of a passing thought though, it’s not my reality.

Centering this back in. At some point I started living with my mom and brother. […]