Cant sleep. cant relax. Wanting to end all this. Wanting to get rid of the pressure in my head .Wanting to rid of the swirling feelings of not being wanted, not being needed. Wanting to close my eyes and not wake up. Knowing that it is not the way. At this moment it feels, “for what?” The girl that owns my heart, given my soul, and given my body is close in proximity but does not allow me to love her. She tells me things about me that I don’t agree with, like i want to control her; I just want to grow old with […]
