I just lost my best friend. How do i feel? Well, it didn’t hit me until i screamed i fucking hate you as i slammed the door and started to walk to my house. That was my person. The person who would listen to me cry all night about a boy and try to help me. The person who defended me when she didn’t have to. I just hurt that person. So bad, i could see the water start to feel her eyes when i told her she never gave a damn about anyone but herself. She doesn’t cry too much, that’s how i knew i […]
I can say alot about myself. I could tell you i’m happy and have wonderful days with wonderful people and everything’s going just wonderful. But that would be a lie. I’m not happy. Things and people aren’t wonderful. This isn’t a movie where the hopeless maiden gets saved by prince charming or something. No. That never happens and whoever told you that needs to get smacked in the face. At 6, i was mallested for 2 straight years. At 10, i was overweight. At 12/13, i had an eating disorder. At 14, i gave up my everything to a boy who never cared a thing […]
Im okay.
Okay, im alright.
Alright, im miserable. I go to school and hang out with all my friends who can’t see past my laughter and bright smiles. I wear long sleeved cause I can’t let anyone see what i did, what they would do if they knew, i have no idea. They’d probably leave me, they don’t tend to deal with those kind of people. Wow, i’ve got them fooled. Mayday parade, weed, and a nail file is what’s making me go on. I have alot of good memories, but for some reason i have forgotten any bits of happy days and sunlight. My inside is cold […]
I’m not the kind of person to tell someone about my bad day. Or how shitty and downhill my life’s going. I’m not the kind of person that can tell you that suicide crosses my mind everyday. I dont want to end up in a mental hospital, but i know i am crazy. I have fallen so far in this deep hole called depression that is overloaded with dirt and is slowly suffocating me. What are you supposed to do when that happens? I hate my life, and i’m still so very young. I smoke cigarettes, and weed, and nothing will ever escape me from this […]