Anxiety. Depression. Panic Attacks. Two years ago I fell into a deep, deep depression where I could think about nothing but ending it. That’s what I wanted most. I lost ALL of my friends by pushing them away with my constant depression and negativity. Things started getting better, or so I thought. Maybe I was just too busy to notice my anxiety. Maybe it never went away. All I know is when my panic attacks start back up, they are getting more and more intense. Much worse than in the past. At least then I had more self control to try to keep busy and […]
It’s amazing how you feel when you finally find that one person who completes you. When the two of you have everything in common, and are almost inseparable. Then one of you changes and you two start to drift apart, then one bad mistake later and you never talk to each other again. Then you find out that she is now dating your former best friend. It is drama, I no longer keep in touch with anyone from my past due to the fact that I’m in so much pain because of it. It’s been over a year since I’ve last seen her, and although […]
Just another battle I’m going through in my head. My head and my heart don’t know what they want…I’m tired of all the pain. Please God don’t let me wake up tomorrow. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Just take me out of this world and give my life to someone else who deserves it. I’m tired of living. I’m just in bad shape. 🙁
I just want to die…
I don’t know why I feel this way. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m tired of feeling down and depressed all the time, and constantly feeling unloved. I have a story just like everybody else, but what’s the point of telling it? Everybody has their own problems, why should I complain about mine? I just wish I stayed dead…I’ll still never understand why I came back. I just don’t know what to do anymore…but death sounds better and better every day. I’m just broken beyond repair.
ITS AMAZING HOW OME PERSON CAN MAKE YOU FEEL SO ALIVE, BUT WHEN YOU MAKE THE TERRIBLE MISTAKE IVE MADE, THEY LEAVE YOU FOR DEAD. I CANT GIVE MY HEART TO ANYONE ELSE, SHE STILL HAS MINE. ITS BEEN SIX LONG MONTHS SINCE I WAS HER’S AND SHE WAS MINE. I HAVE BEEN MISERABLE EVERY SINGLE DAY SINCE I LOST HER. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. DEATH SEEMS LIKE MY ONLY OPTION. THIS PAIN IS JUST WAY TOO INTENSE TO BARE. I JUST WISH THINGS WERE DIFFERENT, I REALLY DO. I STILL LOVE HER, BUT SHE CAN NEVER LOVE ME BACK. I […]
When a guy tells you he loves you, he really means it. Unless he’s just a complete jerk. When you break up with a guy, he might seem like he’s ok with it, but he’s really dying on the inside. Girls seem to move on to the next guy after a few days of crying. Guys will feel the pain for the rest of our lives. There isn’t a day that goes by when you aren’t on our minds. Nobody could ever love you more than the way we do. I just wanted to let you know. The pain hurts so much, that I just […]
I’m tired of hiding behind a fake smile. I’m tired of having all the panic attacks. I’m tired of dreaming of you every single night. I’m tired of waking up each day, hating myself for losing you. I’m tired of this 5 month long depression. I’m tired of living this unhappy life. I think tonight will be the night. Just remember, not a second has gone by that I haven’t loved you. I’m sorry about being that egotistical jerk I was in the past. I’ve changed, but it’s just way too late. I just can’t do this anymore, I’m surprised I’ve lasted this long. This […]
Feeling completely unwanted and unloved. I have nobody in my life who really cares. Not family, not really friends. Every day I go to work, and I wonder why am I still alive. Who am I bringing all this money to? Just me. Everybody I get close to, I end up losing in the end. There is like this barrier around me, keeping love away from me, even though I welcome it with open arms. My method is very easy, and could do it right now. My life has no meaning to it. I’m just here. I keep waiting for an angel to walk into […]
It’s amazing, I’m just so unhappy that I actually want to kill myself. Nobody genuinely cares. They might say they do, but the cold hard truth is, they don’t. This broken heart of mine just can’t be healed. I hope she is happy in his arms. The pain I go through every day just isn’t worth it anymore. Death is the only way out to relieve this pain.
Don’t know what to do anymore. Watching my world collapse around me more and more every day. This streak of bad luck is never going to end. I’ve already killed myself once. All this can end if I can have her love again. I can’t begin to list every thing that has happened within the past couple months, nothing good has happened. All I need is to have her by my side again, and the rest I can take care of. Unfortunately that’s not going to happen, what’s the point of living? Constant unhappiness isn’t a life I would like to live. Live, die…who cares?
I just can’t do this anymore. I’ve been depressed every single day since we broke up. It’s been two months now, and not a day goes by that I don’t think about her and regret everything I did wrong. I’m in love with her, and there’s nothing I can do about it. She is always on my mind, and I just can’t live this way. I wish things were different, I wish we never broke up, but we did, and it was all my fault. I really don’t want to wake up tomorrow. It just hurts too much. I love her with all my heart.
Before I begin with my story, let me just say that I’m staring death in the face and I’m at the end of my pitiful rope. It’s a long story so please get comfortable. At the very end, is a letter to my love.
September 25, 2010 – The day my life would change forever.
I had been talking to this girl I liked for a while now, we had a lot in common, so we set up a movie date. September 25 was our first date. She looked beautiful that summer night. I remember what she wore, how her hair was, and most of all, that […]
Before I begin with my story, let me just say that I’m staring death in the face and I’m at the end of my pitiful rope. It’s a long story so please get comfortable.
September 25, 2010 – The day my life would change forever.
I had been talking to this girl I liked for a while now, we had a lot in common, so we set up a movie date. September 25 was our first date. She looked beautiful that summer night. I remember what she wore, how her hair was, and most of all, that long hug she gave me when I first walked up […]