When i was a little girl i almost drowned at the beach i was almost gone but then my father grabbed me and saved me…..I wish he had let me die then i wouldnt hurt like i do everyday and my family would be over it by now….why couldnt he just let me go? i think it was god’s plan for me to die cause my life has been hell every since. Ive been depressed my whole life now im 27 and extremely tired i just want out….thats all
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I am such a coward. why am i so afraid to follow through on my attempts. I know that my everyday life is much more painful than any method of committing suicide. Everyday hurts so why cant i do this. is it the pain or the fear of what comes after. i dont know all i know is i hate me and i hate my life. i suffer everyday and i want it to end.  I think maybe i should get some bug foggers and set them off in a small enclosed area it should be painless right? then i get scared that it wont work […]
Why am I fighting to live
If Im just living to fight
Why am I trying to see
When there aint nothin in sight
Why am i tryin to give
When no 0ne gives me a try
Why am I dyin to live
When Im just livin to die
This is the hook off of my favorite songs. it says so much with so little.
I dont know what to say my whole life has been shit. I have been trying to kill myself since i was a child of about 10. Nothing ever goes right in my life and that is no exaggeration, sometimes i think god hates me for something i did. or something someone else did. its to the point where i had to ask my mother if i was concentually concieved because i feel like my being here is a mistake. i really hate myself and i am just so tired of trying and failing how can one person be such a failure. god must hate me […]