I’ve been struggling a lot lately to hold on to the person I used to be before depression. I had so much inside me. I wanted to conquer the world, I wanted everything good life could ever provide. I was a remarkable student. I went even to study abroad… but suddenly everything turned blacked. I mean, looking back there was so many signs that I just ignored. I spent working on means to achieve the things I wanted that when I got ready it was too late … If had seeked helped before … I’ve just turned 28 last week and I felt everything that […]
Guys i need to share this with someone. On the 4th december around 10 pm I took 160 pills of paracetamol with half botle of vodka. It was 72g of paracetamol. I read that 12g is lethal. Anyway, I passed out and woke up at 5:30 am covered with vomit. There was vomit everywhere, even inside my fridge ( i guess i was trying to drink water). How can be possible someone walk while inconscient. I really think God saved me. At 7:00 a.m. I went to the ER, I was vommiting, sweeting, I had fever and I couldn’t think clear. I stayed 4 days […]
Like 1 and half hour ago I tried to hang myself for the second time. I got home from work and I started feeling that fucking pain again and I felt in that fucking despair where I just see black. I just couldn’t stand beeing alive. So I went to supermarket and bought a botle of wine to relax a litle before doing it. So I tied the rope around my neck and I tried to hang myself from the bedrom’s door. I was listening to Lady Starlight and I was dreaming that soon I would be in the sky, shining like a litle star. […]