Guys i need to share this with someone. On the 4th december around 10 pm I took 160 pills of paracetamol with half botle of vodka. It was 72g of paracetamol. I read that 12g is lethal. Anyway, I passed out and woke up at 5:30 am covered with vomit. There was vomit everywhere, even inside my fridge ( i guess i was trying to drink water). How can be possible someone walk while inconscient. I really think God saved me. At 7:00 a.m. I went to the ER, I was vommiting, sweeting, I had fever and I couldn’t think clear. I stayed 4 days in the hospital and while there I didn’t ask God to save me, I was waiting for my punishment, but I thought if I had one more chance I would do things different. On Monday night, after 3 days taking the antidote, I felt like I was going to live. The docs said that my body is very strong, they were surprised how fast i recovered. I cried after he left thinking how a weak mind can live in such a strong body. Anyway, I didn’t call my family, they don’t give a shit for me and I decided they shouldn’t know. I faced everything by myself, the doubts, the pain, death. I promised myself I was going to change but 3 days after I left the hospital I’m suicidal again. The main reason is people. It really hurts to be called ******, to have guys talking behind your back, to be the joke, to be hated for no reason. I’ve just decided that I don’t wanna live like that. I think I gonna hang myself after new year’s. I’m much stronger now and honestly I’m thinking that hell could be better than living like that.
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Been there, it’s hell (paracetamol overdose). You were lucky that you vomited, otherwise you would had end up with liver necrosis, which… is not a fun or nice way to go. FTR both times i seriously od’d i did things without having conscience of them, on one of them i supposedly woke up and went to the bathroom twice in the span of the 50+ hours that i blacked out, and i have no idea if i did something else. So… yeah, that does happen .
As for people treating you bad… i don’t know, losing your life over stupid people that have no decency to be kind towards others is (imho) not worth it. You’re bound to find decent people eventually, that will accept you for what you are (or at least that’s what i keep telling to myself). It is difficult, but people like that do appear once in every blue moon.
If you have until new years eve… well, i’d say use this time in order to really think things through, but again, killing yourself over the treatment of others is sort of… just giving them what they want, in a pretty screwed up way.
So true mate, if they are like that to you, well lets be honest, they are nothing to you right? Everyone has opinion and everyone is strong and pretty … or maybe they are not at all, they are just shitty talkers to try to feel better..
Anyways, they dont count im sorry, they are just outsiders, they are strangers , enemies.
Like Mf said , dont do that becuase outsiders. Think about urself and the people that really cares, ppl that u can find in near future.
I try to live with not caring what others think of me. Except the one person im stuck on. but i grew up with bullies. They’re everywhere. Do u have other options like do u have to be near those ppl?
Bish man, rock your body!
Cant tell you that much, is not like God didnt help you, becuase im sure that He did, but lets be honest, “conditions” like that just dont ride off by miracle i guess.
We need to fight it back, its like some1 else said, brain is like any other organ you know what i mean? Sometimes it needs help.
And most of times the best help is “YOU” i guess.
My advice to you, if you care about what those piece of shit ppl says about you, just move on, make a new start you know? move out there.