a year and a half ago, i stood on the train tracks awaiting death. however, two women pulled me off. i was instantly hospitalized. i spent a month there, between inpatient and outpatient care. before then, i was in my first real relationship. we’d been together for over a year and he would constantly tell me how he plans on proposing to me. i get that i shouldn’t have believed it, that I’m too young for talk like that…but it all felt so real. a month before the incident, i approached my boyfriend, explaining to him how i wanted to end my life. at first, […]
i feel like im 100% alone in this world. i don’t fit in anywhere..i have no close friends, and no one to turn to. the only person i have is my boyfriend, who has repeatedly gone behind my back. i just don’t know if all of this pain is worth it anymore. im only 17 years old. people say that suicide is just an impulsive thought. but its so much more than that. I’ve planned everything, for about two years now. its what i want, its not an impulse at all. everyday i ask myself if anybody would miss me. in all honesty, nobody really […]
Nobody in my town or my age seem to understand the idea that their actions effect other people as well. It has been a year and a half since I attempted suicide, yet nothing has gotten better. My final year in high school was complete hell. I was tormented by a group of girls who used to be my best friends. Day after day they told me how no one likes me or wants me around. They repeatedly shouted names down the hallway at me or spread rumors about me being pregnant. This summer they have peanut-buttered/egged/balognied my car twice. Then, try countless times to […]