How do you put down the knife? How do you put it down and walk away?
Today has been the worst day of my life. the absolute worst. the first that happened was this one girl, a girl who truly loved me, told me she hates me. i deserve it too. i unwittingly lead her on, when i realized what i had done the only thing i could do was break her heart. and i broke it… i stomped on it. i still feel awful about it. today was the first time i’d talked to her in a long time, she told me that the only way for her to mask the pain was for her to hate me with passion. […]
there are an awful lot of stories on this site, but every story is different right? the base feelings of despair are mixed into all of them, but how you came to be there and what you plan to do is always different. most of us are suicidal, hence the name “the suicide project” i suppose. i am no exception. but maybe it’s time i told the whole story of how i came to be here and what i plan to do.
my story is not filled with rape or abuse or anything like that. ive never been the loner at the back of the […]
So of course just like the rest of us on this site i’m pretty suicidal. and by pretty i mean really suicidal. so naturally when i found a girl that makes me happy it was like god had decided to let up a little bit. a few months go by and all is well until recently. things are falling apart and im freaking out because without her i know i’ll try something again. i cant let the tiny bit of happiness ive found get away from me. And yet she causes me so much pain too… and her knowing about my depression is hurting her […]
Life is a *****… what else is there to say? I deserve to be happy don’t I? what have i done wrong? what sort of punishment is this? a torture where life is synonyms with the pain that surrounds me…
I don’t understand why I feel pain like this. It’s completely unbearable. Two years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression. i’ve spent these last two years in therapy and searching everywhere for something to make me feel better. I’ve tried therapy, ten different anti-depression drugs, hypnosis, acupuncture, acupressure.. the list goes on and on. on top that i’m victim to horrible anxiety attacks that can strike at any moment without warning, i usually get about two or three a day. they make me curl up into a ball and wait to die. my family has abandoned me because i cause everyone around me pain […]