i need so much help.. im basically completely alone in life, i have no friends i suffer from severe depression and basically my only and best friend was my father. it kills me to say that he passed away and now im at a loss of what to do i love him so much..
so yeah, its been one long time since ive been on here but yeah, imm still kicking… barely. within the time spent from my previous posts my life has hit an all time low, my recent fuck up has left me with not a single friend honestly, and im not just saying that i have 6 contacts in my phone all of which are family nobody has the ever so slightest inclination to talk to me ive failed two suicide attempts and no longer have the drive to continue whatsoever. i am being bullied so bad i cant put it into words and yet […]
you know i figured i could come here and people would help me and care about what i feel and what i say but hey i guess this place just reflects my life i have nothing left in this life so i think i may be leaving soon for the small number of you who did care thank you you pulled me out of some pretty low spots but this time im pretty well gone
im lookin for long but the least amount of pain i want to do some things before im totally gone and say some goodbyes so any ideas?
im tossing around the idea of smoking, any thoughts, concerns or personal experiences/ advice would be very helpful
as i live this life of hate and despair
why may i ever still care
my life is full of pain and seclusion
and when i pray for any source of resolution
im throw down and left beaten and defeated
for in this world ill never be needed
so as i say my final goodbyes
just remember through all the lies
it was you who i loved the most
but you saw me as a ghost
so as my last minutes tick by
i embrace the thoughts that today is finally the day i will say my final goodbye
Can i get some opinions on how young is too young to die in your opinion i want to see when it will be most convenient for me to take peoples word and leave this world
i have thoughts of killing myself every single day. everywhere i go, everything i do has these thoughts tailing me in a deep darkness. so why is it so hard for me to final just let go and end it?
well it appeared that things were gunna get better and that i just may have gotten a break. i met the most wonderful beautiful girl ive ever seen. she loved me for me not my fake side, she loved my dark side and she just made me so happy. i stop cutting i thought man this is it finally my break but well life always finds new ways to shit on your parade right? her mom found out about us dating and well she didnt quite approve of that. shes no longer allowed to talk to me or see me all contact i have with […]
i think tonight just might be the night i leave this hell hole that people call life im sick of it it has nothing left in it
so as i sit and stare
i wonder to myself who exactly would care
if i died tomorrow
who could ever feel an ounce of sorrow
while my body may still roam
that only stands as my outer dome
inside i am dead
all my life ive been secluded
so ive concluded,
why stay
through all of this dismay
ill never find an answer
i am gone
my problems are to deep
and no longer shall i weep
ill never belong
so i just tag along
on this train of sorrow
looking for a better tomorrow.
well i found out today my friend that ive know since i was 2 and a half is gone…. hit by a car and bam just like that im out the only person i have left. life your just flat out an asshole you know that? why. why me. above all people what have i done to deserve this… she was so sweet so perfect and just like that dead. i love you sam.. i hope your in a better place i just may be joining you here sooner or later dunno yet
i hit seven cuts tonight. they dont lie when they say its addictive….
Well i started cutting last night around noon. now at this moment i have four cuts. my friends found out well now i dont have anymore friends. just fu**in love my life…. i figured theyd support me but all they did was turn and get mad at me. i hate my damn life… cant anyone just understand?
i broke… Â i cut for the first time tonight. but it never hurt. it felt good. it felt so damn good. im relieved…. i thought it would hurt but it never did. it was soo good. i cant express that enough. im so glad i finally have a way away from things.
i live a world full of seclusion. nobody likes me, nobody gives a damn whether i live or die so what the hell do i really stay here for? ive never met expectations by my parents or really anyone for that matter, im ugly as all hell nobody bothers to ever try talking to me because nobody understands me, my live is just a gaint pile of depression, pain, and suffering. i go through each day thinking of the best ways of ending it so that i can rid of this horrible life. im sick of this i feel like im trapped in a world […]
can anyone give me some insight on cutting? ive wanted to for some time now i just want to see how it is before i jump into it