Ever since my dad killed himself 3 years ago, I’ve found it really hard to relax with other people. I’m fine in a group, but when I’m one on one with another person I feel so much pressure. It’s like half my mind is with the other person and engaged, and the other half is in my own head, constantly thinking about what to say next. This feeling is present with pretty much everyone apart from my mum and a few others. I hate awkwardness and I just feel in constant fear of it. I am always overthinking whether the other person is […]
Ok so I’ll try and keep this as un dramatic as possible, as I hate melodrama. I guess I’m a pretty normal girl from a pretty normal English family, but lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t want to go on and it’s tough. Anyways, when I was 15, I was probs living my best life and starting to blossom out of my awkward pre teen all girls school nerdyness into a pretty social being. That summer my dad started to get pretty ill, he’d had depression all his life. I would be a bit dramatic to my then boyfriend I guess for attention, speculating […]