please it may just save my life
as far as i can remember everyday was and is a stuggle for me. I realised i am i highly sensitive individual that just doesnt fit in as SMOOTH as the rest!
Its clear to me now that its just how i was born, its my nature! I am unique and now i can can proudly say i am proud of it! its amazing that out of all ive been through i can honestly say i wouldnt wanna be anyone else. I have been through immense emotional pain. No my mother/father didnt die no i didnt witness a real tragety. I have suffered MILD abuse but […]
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amen
i dont hate people, i understand them. it hurts to understand people.
okay so prozac really isnt doing anything for my severe debilitating anxiety, what else can i try,i need  it asap, icant live in this automatic every day feer an stress its exhausting
I need alcohol now my parents locked it up cause of me. Little do they know it keeps me sane they don’t understand my anxiety
im panicking just let me get this out
(i dont mean for anyone to take these things too personally, i just need to share..)
i might come across really negative, dont let it effect you… im really a good person)
please feel free to give me some suggestions to add to the list, i’d really appreciate any feedback
i hate the doctors office
i hate cards (birthday, greetings….theyre so corny
the dentist
the phrase “how are you” and the conforming answer”well, thanks, yourself?”
hate how there’s little options as to what you get in life.
perfume
i hate how i have to lie to myself by thinking positively
i hate how i wanna runaway but i […]
I love the days where im home alone so i can drink which helps me cope with my unqiue situation, (read my past posts). Ihave unique problems. Social awkardness to say the least. Im scaredto find out my online schooling mark, im sure i failed one class and my moms gunna flip probably. Im actually going to bc this summer to visit a friend i havent seen in a long time and i honestly dont want to . i WANT OUT
i am so tired. life seems absolutely pointless, it makes little sense so by my judgement, i am done, im gunna go try and hang mysef, i willl fail butfuck.
just a random impulse to kill myself tonite, i need to be free fromthis sick joke called ”life”. i probably wont be successfull tho… im a very confused 18 y old girl. life hasnt given me reason to haveany interest in it.i love being alone. wish icould describe how i genuinely feel. i havebeen stronger than anyone could be if theyve been wat ive been through…idont even know watim thnking let alone saying..ive been hurting for farrrr tooo long,, i dont wish this pain on anyone.
18 and hanging in there, realising its way easier when i decidei dont care lesz, drinking helps (i’ve just started) , it makes me feel good about myself, and confident and motivated. It bugs me how iam legally aloud to move out, and start my own life and stuff and i want to so bad because my lifehonestly kinda sucks right now but i dont even know how to move out? idk im scared to? im scared to be independant?I dont have a job yet for reasons……i honestly wanna move far away from everyone i know including my family, because of certain reasons, bad memories…fml […]
Hardly feel like it. I’m surprised I’ve made it this far.
Thing about it: You had to have been given a mind, a thought pattern, personality, a unique body, something that defines you as YOU.
Everything you’ve ever done, I think you were destined for, the good, the mistakes,…
If you really think about it, If you were anyone one else, you would have their mind, you would feel what they feel, maybe you would have their spirit.
If any given person transformed into you, my guess is they would act the exact same, in that body.
My point is: You really have no control over who you are, how you think, so this is a reason why you shouldn’t […]
everyday bring on a new struggle , i always just get by. i dont live , i exist. tomorrow im supposed to be in this fashion show [they didnt pick me, i just entered ,] im so scared i have to walk in front of god nos how many ppl. nothing you say will make me less anxious. i want out but i ve came ths far an my dad paid a small fee, omg im such a coward but i feel sick and nervous
I have to go to please my mom though. I really hate sharing my personal life with a stranger. plus I hate talking. I hate people who TALK, like TALK TALK. I always end up getting automatic super sensitive and start tearing up and I don’t like it its uncomfortable. I want to run away. I Hate this town. Well I am just tired of it. I serious am through with my same old issues. The thing is I think i can do this on my own, but my mom doesn’t think so and idont know how to tell her. Seriously the therapist just causes […]
Well, my “manic”(happy) mood was short lived, now i am anxious. I need someone to give me tips on,For lack of a better word, how to not give a ****I just have to emphasize how serious I am. I just can’t convince myself to realize that I am overreacting and I am irrational.
{let me quickly summarize this for those who don’t want to read all my complaints:Â I want to be able maybe speak my mind, and not feel embarressed about it, tell me how to not care so much}
I AM JUST SO PARANOID>
No matter how hard I try I get paranoid and think that […]
THis is, like all my other posts, gunna be long and messy,I have a hunch that I may be bipolar but I’ve been denying it. I am almost 18. I can quickly change from being really zombie-like- to five alive.
Suicidal/hopeless to an hour later acts like nothing ever happened and I am good again.
I get these very short burst of what seems to me like mild Euphoria,some what manic-like? where it feels like I can do anytrhing, i feel confident for once and I always laugh super easilyand sometimes unnessesarily (because of my weird sense of humor) but then it dissipates and then I get […]
hopefully 2012 will fulfill this wish. I JUST NEED TO RANT k? I wish I could be abducted by aliens an be taken away to their planet where things might actually make the least bit of sense. I clearly don’t belong on earth. People seriously miind blow me. I wish to be alone or with alike people. I don’t get myself or anything, Actually I only get myself, I dont ‘get’ other people. I don’t want to do much, i don’t know where to start, nothing gives me fulfillment because it just seems so insignificant to the whole universe, yet its funny how I can’t […]