I’m shooting myself tomorrow. I love my life. I love my sister. It’s everything I could ever dream of, but I can’t sleep and I’m incredibly unhappy 🙁 I think of all of the opportunities I had to have a great love and be happy and I blew it. I wish I could blame my family situation, but who gets to do that? We dig our own graves, so to speak. I miss my mom though and I miss my family the way that they were. Â I’m not a teenager. I’m a single 27 year old female with a house, a profession, a college degree, […]
How do I get the courage to pull the trigger? I’m mourning the life that I should have had but never will now. I want to be reincarnated or have a life do over. I wish I had realized how lucky I was 🙁 I was actually very fortunate in life. I’ll never ever forgive myself. I can’t make myself get out of bed. How do it make myself commit suicide. It’s so scary. So scary. I wish I had realized that before I made some of the decisions I made.
This sounds very vain compared to a lot of the other stories that people are telling, but I took prednisone, which is a catabolic steroid and it caused stretch marks all over my body and wrinkles all over my face. I also got plastic surgery that I didn’t need and ruined my face and body at only 27 years old. Money isn’t everything and I wish that I had never had it because I followed my moms footsteps even though I said I never would. I’ve become the freak I used to make fun of. Instead of being made fun of myself, I am thinking […]