This sounds very vain compared to a lot of the other stories that people are telling, but I took prednisone, which is a catabolic steroid and it caused stretch marks all over my body and wrinkles all over my face. I also got plastic surgery that I didn’t need and ruined my face and body at only 27 years old. Money isn’t everything and I wish that I had never had it because I followed my moms footsteps even though I said I never would. I’ve become the freak I used to make fun of. Instead of being made fun of myself, I am thinking about just killing myself. I can’t work, I can’t eat, I can’t clean, I can barely sleep. I drive every one around me crazy. I’m just scared to pull the trigger. I just keep imagining my broken skull everywhere or my eyes popping out if my head from the pressure of the shot. I don’t know how I got to this point but it definitely isn’t getting any better. I would feel better about things if knew I would be reincarnated. I actually really loved my life. That just makes this that much more awful. I’m obsessed with dying now that I’m hideous. Truly hideous.
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get a laser treatment,it will work for face wrinkles.and as you said you have money and you are young,the treatment is right for you.yeah!it will work for wrinkles.
I already tried laser. I also got a bad rhinoplasty and damage on my chin, so I have a saggy chin. Honestly, I’m hideous and I used to be gorgeous. It’s a weird phenomenon for me
oh!well it is hard to tell about your nose or chin unless i see a picture.but you got a bad rhinoplasty from one surgeon doesn’t mean it won’t be fixed by another.so you know find a good plastic surgeon who has an experience.and your face isn’t as bad as you describe it.not sounding cliche,but we may feel ugly when something different happen to us.we may even be shocked when we got our first acne.right?so that might be the case.hey don’t get the wrong idea,but,can you tell me others attitude towards you after the nose job? And you didn’t tell us what happened to your chin.but again it is very hard to say anything with out seeing you.
use “your face may not be as bad as you think it is”instead of
“Your face is not as bad as you describe it” sorry for the mistake.
imessedup,
I have been on this site for a while now and never really been able to connect to any of the posts until now. I can’t tell you how much I can relate to your situation. A few months back I had a chemical peel that I was told would help with some scarring on my face. However, I had an allergic reaction to one of the chemicals and it has left my face a red and scared mess that I’m told I will have to live with the rest of my life, and the worst part is that it is my fault for deciding to do the peel.
It is so hard to live your life like this, I mean your face is what you present to the world. In a superficial world in which we live in it really is what defines us (even though people like to say it isn’t). For me the anxiety I feel just simply going to the grocery store is physically draining. I used to be an extremely motivated and out going guy and I have completely lost all that. I completely avoid any reflective objects and count down the seconds everyday to when I get to fall asleep and pray that I wont have to wake up in the morning.
To me a situation like this is worse then being born with some kind of disfiguement for a few reasons. For one you have to go through every day knowing that it is your fault and constantly tracing back through your life knowing one little decision hear or there could of prevented it. Also when your born with something you grow up learning how to deal with it and understanding that “hey its just the way it is”. However when you suddenly get struckin with it, its a complete mental shock and can instantly debilitate your whole life.
@livetodrown
Yeah,i have in somehow related to you too.i have so much acne scarring on my face.which make me suicidal.i tried chemical peel.even if it doesn’t make any difference it didn’t left sideeffects.anyway i wish you the best.did you were makeup or something? i think it can make a difference on you.
Makeup doesn’t make any difference because the doctor removed bone between my eyes when he did the rhinoplasty. It’s horrifying and I was really beautiful before. I can’t forgive myself. I think I had BDD. So, it’s weird for me to go in to public and see all of these normal looking people living their lives. Even ugly people look healthy if they just take care of themselves. That’s all I needed to do. I was adorable. I’m so upset. Anyways, I bought a gun and I can’t work up the courage to use it. It’s very deflating because my boyfriend broke up with me over this and he is extremely attractive. Extremely. I knew he would when he realized what I had done.
@joenil
I have thought about it. But I would have no idea where to even start as far as wearing makeup
@imessedup
I know what you mean about seeing all the “normal” people around living their life..it’s hard for me to even enjoy watching movies havin to look at all the nice skinned actors, but you don’t need to use that gun. I have contemplated suicide many times, and even came close a few times (I.e. rope around neck), but I havnt gone through with it so that tells me I must have a glimmer of hope left in life that I’m holding on to. I know it sucks having that feeling that you will constantly be alone for the rest of your life..maybe we can help each other and just chat?
@livetodrown “…count down the seconds everyday to when I get to fall asleep and pray that I wont have to wake up in the morning”
That is exactly what I do. 🙁
@livetodrown
Yeah. I am a guy like you.and i even don’t start wearing it:).i thought you know about this,and share it with me.but i thought i was wrong.but hey guys we have each other right?so that is a plus.and i will post about my journey on this makeup thing.so let’s stick together.about suicide?
Yes i am suicidal.i am collecting what i need for the final exit.but before that i will try everything i can before i start executing my self.
So try every thing guys.if you wanna talk it will be a pleasure.
@livetodrown
I seriously think it might help to just chat
@joinel
yeah I am definitely suicidal and getting myself prepared, but like you I am not going to give up until I try everything
and we definitely have each other..I would love to just talk and chat about things..whats the best way to contact to you?
@live2drown
Email most likely, unless you really meant to send that to Joinel
whats your email?
seidadem453@gmail.com
k..i messaged you
@livetodrown
I think my comment is waiting for moderation so i am gonna message imessedup and you can ask her for my email.or find posts i made by searching.for example search “sweet november”.and you can find a post i made.comment their what ever you want.and i know how to find your email.