I really want to see a psychologist about my problems. A while back when my mom found out I was cutting I went to a counselor, and it helped a little bit, but she was basically a school counselor. I want to tell my mom that I think the things that are wrong with me aren’t temporary because sometimes they go away but they come back pretty regularly. I’ve felt pretty awful mentally for a long time (probably the last three or four years) and I don’t know how to tell my mom that I want help. I feel like she won’t take me seriously, […]
I really just don’t see a reason to keep on going. There is absolutely no meaning to my life, I just feel so pointless. It’s so hard to get out of bed now, I don’t want to go to school, I don’t want to eat. I just want to stop being because it’s gotten so hard to drag my feet. I feel like I’m carrying a thousand tons on my back. I keep dropping things but the weight keeps growing heavier and heavier. I can’t seem to find a way to lighten my steps. I drop pound after pound but I still feel so heavy. […]
About two years ago I started down the path to a really horrible place. I had developed a pretty serious eating disorder, I was harming myself, and worst of all I’d almost completely stopped sleeping. I became extremely unmotivated and generally didn’t want to do anything. I couldn’t find a meaning to life, I saw no purpose to even existing because nothing I did ever made me happy. I tried so hard to be happy but nothing could change the horrible feelings inside of me. About 8 months ago things started to get better, I was actually doing really well and I felt like a […]