i’m nothing anymore.
i wish he could see how much i want out.
im dying here.
he doesnt care.
every night i cry, to be free.
i just want to escape the hell im trapped in.
They dont know how badly i want to die. I’m suffocating. Every day is a battle. I think about how easy it is for me to just overdose or cut to deep. dont want to feel pain anymore.I dont want to be stuck here. I can’t do this anymore. I just want someone to notive how much I’m hurting. It hurts so deeply its a struggle to breathe.i cut to take away the pain for awhile. But when it’s this bad i cant do anything. I’m a basket case. I hate it here. I just want to be free of myself. I am […]
His voice is still ringing in my head. I lost the most amazing person on febuary 6, 2011. he told me to never give up, but i cant do it anymore. i need to see him one last time, and tell him i love him. i just want to see his smiling face, and hearing him knock on my window on late summer nights wanting to go riding, and sitting in his truck singing taylor swift songs wearing cut offs and teeshirts. i miss him so much.
losing him was the worst thing ever. Getting the call in class and hearing he put a gun in […]
My heart is breaking. i cannot do this anymore. i’m just a shell of who i was, im no longer there, so why do you try to keep me here, when it’s not me anymore? my demons have overpowered me, the voices in my head have overpowered me, and the people have too….
i cannot keep living this way, i will not survive the physical and emotion pain anymore. im sick off this. i cant keep living. it hurts to wake up in the morning. i wish i could be strong like him, but i cant. It hurts to breathe. I wish […]
Last night, i wanted to die so badly.
i hate myself.
ill always hate myself.
i am not good enough.
never have been never will be.
im a disgrace to my family and friends.
im just a fuck up.
they’ve all stopped trying to save me.
so i should stop to.
im damaged beyond repair.
i dont know what else to do.
i really dont.
i hate myself.
i just feel its best if i dissappear…
I just want to be with him again.
he was the only one that really got it.
why do i have to be here,
and not there?
why couldnt i have stuck up
to our suicide pact?
i hate myself, i really do.
i hope i die.
i want to shoot myself so badly.
why did he have to leave me
here and make me suffer
so much? i wish
i could just find one other
person that cares and
wont let me go…
I’m numb, and dying inside,
i take my anger out on my wrists.
i hate myself for it.
i wish i would just die already,
the blood is dripping to slowly,
i feel like i can only make people
happy if im gone…. i guess this is it.
There is absolutly no reason to live anymore. i just want to die.
no one would even care if i died.
i wish i wasnt so numb.
im taking pill after pill to make myself feel normal everday,
but i just cant do it anymore.
there is just an emptiness that nothing can fill.
all of the drugs in the world couldnt fill it….
im done.