I feel like I’m out of words now. I’ve been replying to people in a single word. I can’t talk properly. I wonder if I’ll become dumb forever.
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One day goes nice and the next hits twice as hard. Maybe I’ve just become soft I don’t know. But I’ve had enough. It just doesn’t flow for me anymore. You know how they say a musicians stop when they have no music in them anymore. Well my music has been lost. Or maybe the music in me just too shit for anyone to listen to.
This may sound cheesy or whatever, but I need to get this out of me.
Okay maybe im just way too much in love. ive heard most people say that there will be other girls if not her, but then i just cant see a future where she isnt with me. I just cant. It just feels like if she doesnt end up with me, i dont exist anymore, and that just scares me. i feel stupid writing this but it is true. i dont know how ill do without her and maybe its just a little unfair that i have to go through this.
Maybe I just wish I wasn’t so lonely. Maybe I wish that there was someone who said “I know you’re going through a tough time, but I’m gonna help you out, take my hand, we’ll go through this together”. Well I’m supposed to learn to love myself according to my therapist. Clearly I’m failing at that too.
What is this torture. why doesn’t time just stop. Why doesn’t every thing just stop. I just need a fucking break for fucks sake. I can’t even get that much. What shit is this. Why doesn’t this just stop. I wish it was nicer. Please just forgive me for whatever I’ve done. I just don’t want anymore of this
Well I guess I’m finally here. I used to read a lot on this website. I would look for people who feel the same way I did. And now I’m compelled to post here myself because I’ve tried other sources of help. But I really don’t think they understand me. Plus, I did find a lot of shitty people. I feel that people on this website are nice and may actually make me feel better.
I guess I’m just another suicidal person. And like many of you, I’m suicidal because I have had my dreams shattered, my heart broken and now I have no idea where […]