I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday and my only ride to Anchorage was with my junkie friends. I stopped doing drugs almost three months ago, and it’s been fine, until yesterday. I got out of the doctor’s office and my friends went to go pick up some nifftys ( Heroin). It didn’t bother me until they were ready to smoke it. They couldn’t find any tin foil, so I helped them find it in the back seat of the car. I handed it to them and soon they were taking the black tar out and placing it on the foil. They got a hollowed out […]
There’s a lot of things going through my head right now. I don’t know how she takes so much Oxycontin and is still alive. I don’t know if I want her to be alive. I don’t know if I love anyone, and I don’t know how I feel about that. I don’t know why I haven’t been able to look in a mirror happily in four years. It’s beginning to feel like I’m so disgusted with the face that looks back at me, that I don’t even know if it’s me looking back. I don’t know why I lie awake at night still hoping that […]