I asked people for help today and was rejected. Why is this world so cruel?
The stuff is hidden in a drawer just waiting. Stuff I use for work so it’s not suspicious. Tonight would have been the perfect time to use it but…I don’t think I can do it. But it’s there in case I ever get the courage to go through with it. I don’t know. I was so sure this morning. Now I’m not. Maybe I’ll wait a little bit longer.
I wish I didn’t have any hope. Life has been so cruel and yet I still think maybe, maybe this time something good will actually happen to me. But no. I’m pretty sure that it will only […]
I’m going to do it soon. I will buy what I need tomorrow and commit suicide soon. Even the thought of the pain just doesn’t scare me anymore. Although I’m sure that when I actually go to do it I will be very scared. I just can’t live in this world anymore. I hate the waiting.
I’m so sick and tired of bad things always happening to me. I had a terrible childhood, adolescence and now adulthood. Recently, my worst nightmare came true. I’ve been contemplating suicide again. I haven’t thought about it since I was 14 years old and now I regret not doing it then. I wish I could go back in time to when I was 10 years old, kill myself and frame my adoptive parents for murder. That’s what they deserve. But it’s too late now. I didn’t kill myself when I was 14 because I falsely believed that “it would get better”. I was wrong. It […]