And I wish to be gone.
And I wish
And I wish
And that wish
Will get me no where
If I don’t take action
And I wish people didn’t need me
And I wish
And I wish
And that wish
may never come true
But who knows?
And I wish I hadn’t failed
And I wish
And I wish
But that wish is for the past
And I wish
And I wish
And I know
And I will
I will go
Maybe means I don’t know
Maybe means I think I’m giving up
Maybe means somewhere deep inside I’m still fighting
Maybe means yes
Maybe means no
Maybe means goodbye
Maybe means hello
Maybe means everything
Hello my name is Annabelle.
I want to die so bad.
SO bad.
I’ve given up.
Honestly, I’ve come to the conclusion that everyone dies and thought “why wait?”
I got told by the only person who loves me and who I love that they don’t trust me.
So why wait?
I told everyone I even remotely care about goodbye and told them what I want them to have.
So basically
I’ve given up all hope.
I’m broken and at this point nothing can fix me.
I called the suicide hotline.
Me and the person talked.
It didn’t work.
I still feel as shitty as before, even more so maybe.
I betrayed the one I love and I can never […]
So I sit here in a class
no one notices what I do
no one
I sit alone with no one by me
like I like to sit but how I hate to sit.
That empty feeling of being alone will always linger.
No matter what.
Even if I sit with my friend or my girlfriend.
I will feel alone.
It won’t go.
It’s madness that I can’t escape it.
I want to escape it more than anything but I can’t.
I just can’t hurt my girlfriend who is depressed on her own.
Every time I try to go she can’t take it.
I can’t stand hurting her.
I just don’t understand.
She would be better without me right?
I know it.
She’s […]
I’m severely depressed
and have epilepsy
not a good combo.
I tried to kill myself 9 times in my 15 1/2 years of life
I reached the edge once
I could see a light
my life was flashing before my eyes
then when it was to late
I realized I didn’t want to die.
I realized I shouldn’t have drunken that paint thinner.
It’s amazing that I’m alive.
I still have my occasional thoughts
then I remember
for every bad thing
it seems like something good followed.