I’ve tried to end myself sadly again I can’t bring myself to do it I’ve tied my noose it’s been there for roughly 2 weeks I’m hoping before long I will just take the plunge!
It’s been another year of being alone sitting here with my thoughts and reflections I’ve fucked up I’m hoping to be dead come Christmas morning it’d be the best gift I could ever give!!!
I don’t know how much more I can take the contant pain anymore I wanna die I wish I wasn’t here no one would miss me really life will go on without the pain I cause. Been staring at my rafters for days they are looking more and more enticing
The reality bout it is one day soon I will die by my own hands it feels good in a way. Some may think me selfish/coward but fuck them I’ve tried getting help but it’s like no one cares but I Spose they have their own lives to worry about so I’m done they done need me fucking with it