Jane doe

I am feeling so incredibly sensitive today I think even my cat doesn’t like me.
I mean.. for f*** sake, get a grip woman.

A common slant on this forum seems we’re all so, so tired…!!!
Tired of struggle from one miserable day to the next
Tired of having no joy anywhere in our lives
Tired of wanting to die but not quite having completely given up.hope or not having the guts ,the means or the opportunity to end it.
Tired ,tired ,tired..
People who don’t know any better think suicide is a “cowards way out” , an easy way out, selfish..
But actually taking your own life, takes a LOT of guts, a lot of bravery.
Coz it’s so final .
I’m talking sure fire ways of dying, […]

Sittin here late at nite all I want to do is die
All alone ,ran out of tears can’t even cry
Don’t wanna be here please god let me go
During the day I play happy, put on a show
Too young to be old too old to be young
Stuck in the middle nowhere to belong
So lonely it’s hurting, hurting bad
So hopeless, worthless and sad
Putting of going to bed though longing for sleep
Just can’t face the morning, a shivering heap
To be dragged out of bed and suffer once more
A day of misery, pain and depression galore..

Sometimes I feel like nothing,just a body.Thats on a good day.Because on a bad day it hurtsto be alive,when i do feel…

When i’m numband I’m just a body’going through the motions’not caring if I’m gonna be homeless tomorrow,or have nothing to eat,or if I’m gonna be in physical pain.

But when i’m empty,I’m numb,I’m just useless and take up space,and wish i could give my life to somebody that wants it.Its so unfair,some people have terminal illnesses and would give anything to stay alive,yet here I am,wishing for death..

There I’m starting to feel,Guilt. I dont want to feel,I just want to be numb.

Comfortably numb..