Dear Eleanor,
For a moment I was scared. For a moment, there, when I realized that I had been taking sugar pills for two days and there was no sign at all of  the usual monthly pain, I was terrified that I’d managed to get pregnant again, after I’d proved myself the worst of mothers the first time around. I stood in the shower and cried – I sat on the floor and let the water hit me, it was too hot, too real, but I sat there, and sobbed, and I didn’t even hear him come home, until he was in the bathroom, saying, “Darling, […]