I’m not the person I once was. I no longer feel joy. I no longer feel for people close to me. I hate it. I once thought the meds made me able to deal now I can only think they are making everything worse. I feel like I need to get off of them before they kill me. I need my mind back I feel like it’s been taken from me. I walk around and life just seems surreal to me now. I rarely laugh or smile I fake a lot of positive interactions with people so that I don’t have to address it.
The wrong people get shot innocently. Why couldn’t a couple of guys joy riding come along and do me a favor and shoot me in the back. I wish I could switch places with Chris Lane.