i don’t feel as much as i used to. i certainly think more. more than i feel i should. it’s not that there isn’t beauty in this world. it’s just i don’t know how to feel anymore. it’s a strange feeling. the feeling of not feeling. of knowing that you’re supposed to worried, but you can’t bring yourself to anymore mental strain. after the death of my father and brother, both to suicide, my grandfather is ill again. he’s 89 this year. and it’s getting slow for him. i don’t know if i’ll cry when he dies. i don’t know if i can’t bring myself […]
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jjalkaline
the thoughts never subside, and he still haunts me.