First I am not sitting here with a rope around my neck or gun in my hand BUT I do want to kill myself all of the same. I am just too cowardly to do it yet.  A little background. I am 45 year old man with all of the trappings of reasonable success. I have a wife and two daughters. I love my daughters but not the wife. I have been married for over 22 years and double I ever loved my wife for more then a year or so spread out over that time but mostly in the begining only and only sort […]