Whats sad is when you realize your life is over and yet can’t bring yourself to end it. The only friends I occasionally have are either my parents friends or women at a strip club. Yes I realize they’re fake and only want my money but attention can be nice.
Gotta love the moment you realize you’re to chicken to actually end it but realize life is gonna absolutely suck for at least the next ten years if not longer.
i hate when people say you’re only thinking about yourself when you think of ending it. I know if I do anything my parents, sister and niece and nephew would probably deal with it for a long time but should I really be absolutely miserable for 30-40 more years to try and keep them happy? I’m not entirely sure which is more of a disservice to them. I’m 10-15 in debt…making close to nothing with no real prospects…no girlfriend can’t see trying to date or meet someone and no friends…do I really keep this going and if so for what purpose? So tired of this running through my head every second of every day.
I still can’t find a job. I’ve just started really looking but embarrassed over my history. I can’t imagine anyone would want to give me another chance. I really do want to try if someone believes in me again. I owe so much money in credit card debt though that I’m not sure it’s worth trying anyway. I finally went out on a date last night. I thought it went ok but I texted her today and still haven’t heard anything. I’m a failure with career, friends and love. Not sure I can succeed at anything.
My parents took me in. I have no idea how I got here. I can’t figure out how to care about anything. I miss my ex like crazy. It’s been a long time and I still wish I could have her back. We were together six years and I really thought it was going to be forever. Now I’ve had 3 jobs since last year and can’t seem to hold anything down. I really just still want to end it but I’m afraid and know it would kill my parents. I’m not sure anyone else would care and not sure how to make friends or have someone in my life at this point. When do you know it’s just time to give up and your best years are behind you?
Part of me wants so badly to just end it but I know it would kill my family and I have a huge fear of not knowing what’s after. I’ve always been raised religious. The only thing that leaves is homelessness. My lease ends the 31 and I have no place to go and no family or friends willing to take me in. I can’t say I blame them though. Anyone been homeless and have any advice?
About a year ago I lost a job I was with six years…that’s around the time I lost my fiancé of 6 years. It was mainly due to depression and really stupid choices. I never cheated on her but I guess I was kind of a mean drunk. I found new work but couldn’t hack it there and ended up leaving and getting buried in credit card debt. I still haven’t been able to get out. I was with a job the last couple months that I really thought I could make work. Mostly due to my depression I started to despise it. Found myself quitting today and at the middle of the day making out with a stripper at a strip club. So disgusted with my choices right now. I really see no way of turning things around and really leaning towards killing myself. Think it needs to be tomorrow.
Six months ago I had everything…a great paying job and a girlfriend of six years that I think adored me and I adored her. Depression then reared its head. I took absences from work to try and deal with it and then in July got fired. I haven’t been able to find a job since. This week my girlfriend and I broke up. It had been strained for a bit but kept hoping we could work through it. Now I’m about to end up on the street due to not having money. I’m still working on my plan but really liking this website. I felt like I had enjoyed it so much and was tired of being in the shadows.