It has been nearly a year since i was last on this site…..wow. My situation has changed drastically……..but not improved. Now I am just more experienced. I have a fiance! he is the only reason i haven’t died already, so a short message for you folk, find someone- they will keep you alive
if you are reading this then i am hopfully be dead or at least in hospital! wish me luck and be happy my suffering has ended! 😀
This post isn’t about me dying, that is for a little bit later today. No, this is about how i have now lost my second reletive to death in 3 weeks and i have to go to the latest one’s funeral on monday if i am alive.  yet i feel no remorse or saddness. only loathing for them… what does that make me???
This site is literally the last stop for many before they take the final step. Reading post could very well be the last thing some person ever did before committing. I am honored to read their sentiments as it is something they have shared with me but couldn’t with anyone else. That is a privilege.
I am so fed up with seeing and hearing, It gets better. DO I CARE?! if it gets better for you, great. I am even happy you don’t feel down anymore, but I DO!! the only way things will get better is by suicide. people claim to care, but they lie. they all lie. i have been betrayed and lied to so much in such a short time span i can’t even trust my own dad!