Since I was a child I always stood out because of my Autism, and I felt lonely and depressed. I rarely made friends and only managed to have a partner for a few months. In highschool suicidal thoughts started to become common and near the end of school I had the desire to do something violent because of the influence of what I saw online and on the news, since I was naive and foolish, but decided that It was just far too wrong. A few years pass and I start to strangely become obsessed with suicide victims and suicide methods, I would spend hours […]
Over the years I have gone from being optimistic and joyful, to completely dead inside. The few friends I had are now gone, and the failures in my life continue to increase in number as I get older. I constantly feel sharp chest pain from my depression, and I am unable to let out how I feel, unable to cry and unable to strongly feel anything emotionally anymore. My depression gets worse everyday as I have found everything in life to be no fun anymore resulting in myself staying in my bed all day whenever I get the chance. I can’t tell anyone how I […]