My mother passed away in 2019 and I’m not sure how much longer I can do this anymore. One day I feel invincible the next I want to end it all. The constant self-torment/sabotage and grief will be the end of me. I’m so socially awkward I cannot seem to keep a friendship going and have no friends as a result. I find it hard to talk to people about how I feel out of fear. I can be in a room full of people and feel so alone. I cannot understand the reason for my existence.
I have no sense of purpose. I’m struggling to understand the point of being alive. I’m lost. I’m afraid. I miss my mum who passed in 2019. I have no friends. I self sabotage. I’m my own worst enemy. Not a single day goes by where I don’t think about ending my life. My headaches won’t stop. I feel so empty and worthless. I can’t do this no more.
I have no one to talk to.
“I’ve become so numb”
I wounder everyday, for what reason have I been put on this planet, why was I born – what difference am I making to this shitty world? The struggle for everyday survival, the 9-5 deadbeat job and the same constant fucking routine; that we call everyday life.
I can’t move on, there’s nothing to look forward to anymore, nothing to smile, care, love and be happy about; Just pain, misery loneliness. I walk down the street, see happy people all around me, couples holding hand – kissing, children playing etc. The people who helped destroy my relationship, the ones who I once […]
Despite all my efforts to keep myself from over thinking things and trying to live life, I feel really low and alone today. This mood has just come out of no where and it’s dragging me right down.. Suicidal thoughts slowly creeping in the back of my mind again. I have no one to talk to
hey guys, would just like to say I hope everyone has had a safe weekend. I understand life may be difficult now, but as humans we are capable of great things. Remeber that you are never alone, you will always have someone to talk to on here; this is just a stage. You are the star player in your life, if you don’t like the way things are, try and change them, if you can’t, work to change things for the best. I know that feeling you have when first thing you do in the morning when you open eyes, is question your existence on […]
Lastnight was a dark dark time for me, I had everything almost ready to end my life. Then I received an email from someone on here. In my worst time I had someone who actually cared and didn’t even know me. That email brought happiness and light back into me, and I opened my eyes for the first time – my life hasn’t been easy and I felt like it was the last hit I could take!
my brake up – she replaced me with another man – she left me for dead – this was my worst love and her pluge will only continue to […]
I’m twisting and turning in bed, hardly any sleep. Just thoughts of her constantly flowing in and out of my head, what we could of been, what I should of done – what i shouldn’t of done. I don’t know if anyone here has ever been through this … But I basically replace, she led me into believing we still had a chance, and god I was trying my best, but she planned it so perfectly just to hurt me. After 3 years and a half.. Those memories of us just so meaningless to her , that she can just go and sleep […]
As I feel closer and closer to the end i have a sense of happiness and excitement for some strange reason. I don’t know if it’s the thought of leaving everything behind and not having to suffer any longer or what awaits me on the other side. Last night I sat in my room looking at old family photos and it brought a smile to my face of all those happy memories but now so distant and forgotten. I’m just not cut out for this world never have and never will be, so what’s the problem in me just ending it all now? I have […]
I don’t know if I’m allowed to ask this on here, as I’ve only been on this website a few days.
Will a cylinder size 9.3m3 of ******** be enough for to kill someone?
I’m not sure why my 2 previous posts were deleted explaining my life story..
after days of endless sleep research and planning .. it is just a matter of time and when before I end it.if all goes well… I end peacefully I’m at a stage where I feel so numb and I just don’t care about anything or anyone. I don’t know how to explain this feeling of emptiness. I really don’t care for my existence anymore. On one hand I feel sorry for what I will put my parents and my brother through… But it’s not like they care much anyway .. […]
I feel so alone, no one to talk to, no one to understand. I am going insane with my resent brake up.. She left me for another man and had no same in saying she has slept with him multiple times already.. I can not face this pressure and anger building up inside of me. I am crazy about this girl and always will be, but she has just shut me off.. Can’t wait to die
This will be my 3rd post since discovering this website yesterday… I feel so alone and hopeless In life and I do want to face the pain anymore. After losing the only love of my life to someone else is Undescribable. I have been researching different methods on how to end my life peacefully. Yesterday I research the helium hood for around 12 hours. I have now opted for the ******** method… How long it will take for me to execute I have no idea until I summon the courage to do it I guess.. This is the only option I have as obtaining a […]