I’m calling it “reverse ideation”. Instead of mentally forming a suicide attempt, I visualize the aftermath, having already done it. I wouldn’t have done it at home, I would’ve done it elsewhere, but I wake up in the morning at home and run it through my mind that I had done it the night before. I was gone. My waking up experience is incidental, hypothetical. Witnessing time and space that continues to happen, but I wouldn’t be here.
Last month, June 8, Strasbourg, France. If Anthony Bourdain were to have done this reverse ideation, he would have woken up and imagined that he had hanged himself […]