Here I am once again. I keep telling myself “I’m going to post here everyday. Im going to keep going. I will survive” Ect ect. But. Not with whats going down now…Lost my job. No more income. Supposed to be out of my place by Jan 7th..but i have nowhere to go. Lost someone close…but she doesn’t matter anymore,told myself to forget. People tell me it will be okay. SHE told me it would be okay. Thats BS. How is one supposed to think shit will be okay,with the inevitable? Jan 7th. thats my deadline. If i can’t find a job,can’t find somewhere to go…I’m […]
Khrian
Was a few days ago..don’t remember which day..doesn’t matter. Was one of my worser “depressed” days…broke a razor. But instead of the usual slit across the wrist,i followed down,across and into the vein. Let myself bleed out…then i’d cover it..bleed out..cover..then i just..let it bleed. Got to the point in which i almost could not turn back. but then..well i dont know..i decided not to leave this world yet. I told everyone who knew..that it was because i was thinking of them..but now that i think back again..i dont think that was the case…i dont even know..but i cut off the bleeding and..here i am […]
Fresh Cuts. Three. Across..not down..Want to die? No…not yet. Soon? Perhaps…I think of her..my love..see her pain,see her past..cant help..can’t fix..she smiles,yet sorrow holds her lips..she laughs,but cries underneath..”Are you Okay,hun?” “Yes..I’m fine.” No she isn’t…I don’t understand,she won’t let me..Hold back tears..can’t show weakness…Hang head..wait till she’s gone…Fresh cuts..Crimson Life..I worry..i’m scared..my love..somone help..