The worst part about depression is that people that don’t have it, They just don’t get it. They explain it as if it a cry for help, But its really something they HAVE to deal with every miserable day.
I recently have been trying to better myself, Trying to see a therapist and such things. That hasn’t been working well. I’m starting to think its gotten worse. I cant focus on important things. I keep myself up at night thinking about how life would be much more better if I weren’t there. I see virtually how life would be without me in the way, I also see how better it would be. I’m pretty sure now I have “Major depression” and existential anxiety. I falling apart day by day but still managing to keep a smile on my face.
I recently gathered myself together working on a better me but things have been making a comeback pretty bad I think this life just isn’t made for me I don’t think I can take the pressure or pain anymore
” I cant pretend that i’m okay; I can’t fake it anymore I’m hopeless I’m helpless and I’m scared I’m never going to be happy anymore.”
People don t understand how much I hate my life, I have secrets about it like how much everybody treats me like I don’t mean anything. I wasn’t so coward and went through with my suicide, I would have been the first person in my family to commit suicide. I’ve cut, I’ve tried to commit suicide over 5 times One day I’m going to I don’t know when or how but its going to happen.
I really don’t see the point of living anymore, I have a box inside my closet full of unfulfilled suicide letters…I was just to coward to go along with them, I really hate myself for letting my life continue like this it should of stopped a long time ago I give other people advice about how they should continue there life and how they just need to keep there up just a little more, But meanwhile I’m thinking of a way to die. My bestfriend thinks she knows what I’m going through, She doesn’t know the half of it nobody knows but me. I just […]
I really haven’t been on here for some months now because I thought it was just a waste of time…But it was a while back an I just got into this mood where I didn’t communicate with anyone I stayed in my room everyday I didn’t even leave to go anywhere, I just want to get back into that mode because me communicating n forgiving is making me miserable every single day and I don’t say anything I just play along with the joy everyone thinks I have…..
*You love yourself.
Reality: You hate your self.
*Your so peaceful.
Reality: You want to kill yourself.
And every smiles back.
haven’t been on here a while, I haven’t been busy I’ve just been confused about everything like I act like nothng is wrong but I’m getting fucked up inside I cant cant even think straight without crying, Like have you ever sat with your friends and just known that you’re the least important friend in the group and you felt like it wouldn’t make a difference if you were there or not…
“I’m not very good at putting my feelings into words. That’s why people misunderstand me.”
Do you realize how hard it is to smile when all you can think about is killing yourself?
I’m feeling sad again tonight, but then again that’s nothing new.
I tell myself I don’t need anyone but the truth is, they don’t need me.
Depression isn’t always that girl that’s crying in the bathroom or the boy that is always wearing long sleeves =. It isn’t always suicide notes and pill bottles. sometimes, its all smiles and good grades sometimes its the boy that always helpful and the girl that you always borrow things from. Depression isn’t always that easy to notice.
” Does anyone else ever get that utter sense of loneliness? Where it just consumes your mind and leaves you feeling invisible…
When I die, I don’t want anyone to cry at my funeral cause I was the one crying when you weren’t dead.
– Angela parker
Sorry I haven’t been on here, A few days ago I tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrist and I did it vertically and my mother found me at home. And rushed me to the hospital. Ive been there and to a therapy for a couple days now :/
Ive been crying for 3 days straight im just going to end it its my only ,way out right now…..bye
I think its my time to go now….
don’t be surprised when one day you cant wake me up.