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Edit: I don’t know why the Fuck I am alive . I should just be fucking dead I am a worthless and complet idiot I have nothing to give  to this world . Nothing I wish I was fucking dead. I should just kill my fucking self I should had done when I had the chance .

I fucking hate life!!!

I found out a week ago my ex in laws are in town but the problem is is they tried selling my thing online . which has me heart broken if it was clothes no biggie but it was sentimental things also they stole a watch […]

I was almost 7 months strong but I couldn’t last I cut again .

I swear if I hear ” we all know your ex husband loved you more then him.”

Im gonna fucking flip ….because I was not like a psycho path  stalker after his next victim while dating. I some sort of heartless monster.

My cousin left her husband for reasons the other day so she is staying with me . so I was  told she dose not think I know what it would feel like if my ex died while I was with him if I would be shattered or sad because I don’t know what it’s like to love.

Really I don’t have words .

And thinks if you […]

I am so pissed…… So I talked to a cousin of mine that said no one is counting my ex husband having affair as a real one. Because it was just on the phone .

OH IM SO SORRY JUST BEACUSE HE DIDNT PUT HIS DICK IN HER IT DOESN’T COUNT . MY FUCKING BAD   LET ME RUN BACK TO HIM NOW!!!!!

At work I ran into my cousin a different one.  She keeps asking my I don’t ever just call my ex we were married for almost three years.  OH WAIT FOR IT ” KUPO IF YOU THINK HE WILL CHEAT ON YOU AGAIN HE […]

 know who I am now (which is not some one I like ( damaged sensitive unhappy lazy stubborn ect) ….but the me  before marriage , my ex before Arizona .

What was I ?

My mom mentioned therapy but it felt was a trap to see if im still mentally unstable .Which I am lol but if I tell any one that it will be bad …because my dad brought it  up too. (She is crazy make her fake sanity  more ) will probably happen I will get no help ….idk.  But maybe I do need therapy my family talks about me as if I was a […]

So it will be almost four months since my ex and I divorced .

I’m still so confused I still don’t know if I made the right choice .

I just don’t know if I gave up on it all or if I did it to save myself ,running for my life to say.

I do know I was under abuse in not sure if I’m still under there spell ot if I’m just negative nacy .

But if I go back how do I live …..knowing they all hate me ..  That my ex gave up in the relation ship way earlier than I thought with having an […]

WARNING EXPILCTED PLEASE DONT JUGE ME !!!!! I FUCKED UP

So I fucked up .

So you know how everybody says it takes one to get over one.

Well yea that’s fucking bull shit .

So long story short I been talking to this guy for like a few week maybe  He was staying near by were I live . so he was like “let’s meet up .”

So. I was like why not so we meet up .I’m nervous as he’ll the last date I was on was five years ago and with some one I knew my whole life . I never even saw a proper picture of […]

So kids on my dad’s side 8f the family got married so we’re thowinf a shot gun wedding at our house .

First off the the distant family we have I hate . they are the uneducated dumb Americans in this world . so a whole bunch of people are coming over at least 100 of them . so we’re throwing this party and not one person from this family came to help cook clean decorat ect. My Mom even odered a wedding cake for them .

Whatever I’m not that antisocial but really .

On top of that there I anoyying kid here who has a  Crush […]

Ok so I know I’m the ungrateful friend coming here complaining and going in about me and. Then fucking disappearing to who the fuck knows where .  I am sorry .

But what I found recently is the guy who contacted via social media about his revenge on my ex and his soon to be ex wife went well. My ex’s family has to pay the guy from social media family a embarrassment fee . for dating his wife and the whole world sees him as a home breaking scumb bag also if my ex’s and this girl elope he will have to pay a 25 […]

I don’t trust family I have no friends ……the friends I do have live thousands Of miles away and I never met them .all with there own problems.

The stranger messaged me again asking if I had any of my ex’s social media passwords ..I don’t he locked me out when I guess his girl friend and him got  more involved…  But I can’t take this shit as is. it is to much for me I hate evrything as it is to help this guy with his revenge.

I want to cry scream and have some tell me it’s ok . but I don’t I […]

When ever I think you know I don’t feel like total shit Today something shitty happens.

Yes I been going thru emotional up and down but I am fucking human sooo. I have social media just one fucking site just one . so for about to weeks some stranger is mesaging me saying  to please call or text him it’s important . I been ignoring it because well it’s a fucking strangers giving out his number it’s a trap don’t trust him it a trap . I should of listened to the voice in my head because to I went what is so damn important. Direct […]

How has eveyone been?

Things for me been ok…..but like knew what was gonna happen. I’m divorced and I can’t see any future I still want to die even tho my level of depression has been cut in half. I guess I never changed from the same girl I was four years ago.

I am currently sitting in the back of my cousin husband car because he an idot Ian wanted to pick my cousin at three and the moring saying day my family is evil . and I should just go get my ex back because I’m home and my family brain washed me …and he did not but his wife which did . .

But I’m brain washed and my ex has not cheated on me my cousin hates my family . and given her bullshit on how he change and how he loves he but he drove here drunk it’s 5 am I’m tired and im […]