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OH SUPER SANDRA

by kupo95 4/16/2016

written by kupo95

Extremely long rant sorry ….

Oh im sorry great and all power full Sandra I dishonored you. !!!! Have I fail you I have not gave you grandchildren because “I wanted to get my financial right” her words .FUCK ME its was not i was 18 year old newly wed I wanted my own home …You know if I had a bed that did not come out of the wall. And well you know not living with you in small apt with you if I have sex no fucking will hear me the last thing I want right now is child . beacuse if you’s decided […]

4/16/2016 3 comments

Ok me want the perfume

by kupo95 4/16/2016

written by kupo95

I want it and I would use it in a mila sec …..I am absolutely emotionally confused ..numb sad hopless … .worthless….with constant fear of things my parents might do and how quickly I will use I that perfume if I had it .

I hate every one… my parents are playing good cop bad cop when there both psychos…inculeding my in laws my husband is still asleep sooo helpfull…(my mother just texted me do trust anyone )

Got it momma my life is […]

4/16/2016 4 comments

Blackness inside me

by kupo95 4/13/2016

written by kupo95

sorry to post again put I’m too unstable I was fine the part of that wanted to left . But he went vacation because it’s back and I am not OK . The only thing I want to do is miraculously drop dead or cut myself honestly . I don’t know why I want to do that, but I have so much heaviness in my chest right now .that maybe if I cut it might let some of this black greasy feeling out. It feels like I’m in Mourning like someone die that’s how sad and hopeless I feel. I don’t know what to […]

4/13/2016 1 comment

Sigh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

by kupo95 4/13/2016

written by kupo95

Why can’t I be left alone why I cant be just left alone . I am once again being tortured by every one my mother my father my in laws im tired… Im telling my self not to cry … Every wants to control my life …..my husband dosent want to go home because of my parents …I just cant be left alone cant tell them I wanna go to utah becuse there gonna flip why why why . cant cry stop it . I dont know what to doo so lost ….cant even get a chance to fix my life …..Im not a big […]

4/13/2016 6 comments

Ok I need help please read …

by kupo95 4/12/2016

written by kupo95

So I have another decision to make …..to stay in lake tahoe..or..go back to park city utah… ether way I’m stayinf four months. I hated my life when I was in Utah but I will be away from my in laws for a few months or so and I’l be out lake tahoe were I see my life going no were.

Down sides ccomplete seclusion , crappy food. nothing to do but work and It will be just me and my husband .

Also after this four months my life will be up in the air MY husband dose not want to move back to Chicago ever […]

4/12/2016 8 comments

Just so I get my facts straight . …

by kupo95 4/11/2016

written by kupo95

So yesterday my husband told me that his mother is gonna pay for a vacation…greaaaaaat*sarcasm* something eles my mother inlaw will throw in my face. Do I care no I dont I’ll get vk,you’ll think you will have something to hold over me . when the young couple who lives with us said ….I wanna gi when dose her life began .

My mother in law has there nerve to say” let me set your’s facts straight ,your life starts when you have your own house your own income and children. ”

And she not paying for thr trip wich is a lie to make me feel […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

Alone

by kupo95 4/10/2016

written by kupo95

House filled with people, Husband a big family…..but I’m fucking alone.

Physically, mentally, emotionally.

l alone no one to talk all ways surrounded by self centered with greater feeling then god kind of people . thats who I live now and I can’t get away from it no one cares. Im tired and really what to go home. just go home. Please some take me home please .

4/10/2016 5 comments

Old habbits

by kupo95 4/9/2016

written by kupo95

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This made sence .

Find myself repeating to my old habit. To be alone secluding myself keeping away from others. Not Wanting to talk to anyone . Constantly being angry all the time when others are playing and having just outside my room I sit in bed try to ignore them and I try to go to sleep but instead I just think of how useless how worthless nothing unhappy how sad I am and feel bad for a worthless piece of piece of […]

4/9/2016 3 comments

Im up so lets talk anybody

by kupo95 4/8/2016

written by kupo95

Just when I was on cusp of sleep when my mother in law walked in to tell us our family friend son eloped and is on the way it’s 1:20am ….. These people are from Chicago on there way to tahoe ..

Im tired and hungry and now some stange girl he eloped with is with them I hate new people especially 18 year old girls . who this girl married 17 boyvwho I take as brother now she gonna be here for awhile .just what I needed fml..Im tiered… Lets talk!!

4/8/2016 12 comments

Bam depressed

by kupo95 4/4/2016

written by kupo95

Fam pick me up from work instantly depressed hit me like a ton of bricks I was pretty much fine and okay all day and then all of a sudden in a bad mood .

* fart noise*

4/4/2016 17 comments

Let me tell ya about this town It destroys you LIFE

by kupo95 4/4/2016

written by kupo95

Theres a young couple with is the is my husband first cousin and my third . my husband related from our cousin mother Im from his father . the girl he married to is threating to go home cuss shes here and sooo unhappy .the boy by nature is an ass he just cursed her mother while her mom was on the phone.

She is the only one that asked when I left my husband if i was ok and my side of the story and understood .

There fighting and told her ro stop talking to her mom they were staying with me before all this […]

4/4/2016 16 comments

Why

by kupo95 4/3/2016

written by kupo95

Why are you’s trying to hurt me ?

Make me bleed , make me crazy.

Why make me feel useless ,worthless make me grovel?

Why hold me down and destroy me take my life away , break me ?

Just let me go stop hurting me please I can’t take it anymore .

Anything I had ,you belittled made it crap, shitty, garbage.

I trusted you all stop hurting me.

Why make feel so wothless?

Why do you’s want me this way?

What do you get a crushed hopeless girl?

I was chiped […]

4/3/2016 61 comments

Have to go

by kupo95 4/3/2016

written by kupo95

But if u wanna talk worthless121@gmail.com

4/3/2016 11 comments

To emo panda, dark tide and gt suicide I think is his name .

by kupo95 4/2/2016

written by kupo95

Anybody heard from them?

If you guys are here let me know.

Gt is planing his end on the 6th

And dark tide tomorrow.

Emo panda I just havent seen around hope there ok .

4/2/2016 2 comments

Lake tahoe

by kupo95 4/2/2016

written by kupo95

Ok so I’am sitting on a bunk bed , yes a bunk bed of course the bid nice house was a lie its a two leveled apartment with three room all small. I’m staying in the smallest room with two sets of bunk beds. that I think half the sizes of twins and since my husband refuses to sleep in separate bed for two night I sleept in a wall. When I asked to sleep by my slef the whole group said if you fitted on the couch at his grandmothers whats the Problem.

So t

Lake tahoe looks like a shitty little mountain town with enough […]

4/2/2016 82 comments

Im tired of everything

by kupo95 4/1/2016

written by kupo95

Told my family im on the west coast. they did what I thought they would freak out threatened me again threaten to break my marriage again .

Im tired If im being played for a fool let me be played mom and dad . I am a worthless fool . let me die in life mentally emotionally, physically. Im tired of fighting my father siad hell see me in two weeks . I might end it then he gave me my time slot the 9th still stands I guess.

4/1/2016 1 comment

Agony

by kupo95 3/31/2016

written by kupo95

Hey everybody how your morning so far .?

So I was sitting in cab going to a mall and I was playing spot the murder, rapist or pedo with myself. When I seen two kids running across the street laughing and man in his late 20s early 30s was just starring at them . At first I was like he’s a rapy pedo 12 points. But then when we drove past him and I got a good look at his face. There was Agony and sadness in his eyes. He was wishing to be young happy and laughing and not living the life he has . it […]

3/31/2016 12 comments

Wow

by kupo95 3/30/2016

written by kupo95

I love how when every body talks about my in-laws and parents and how my parents are over reacting for no reason(they kinda are). No one talkes about the two years of mental abuse from the in laws .the man reason why I din’t want to go to tahoe in there first place . but Im on my way and on my way to death mentaly emotionally hope full pyschicly too Im so tired .

gonna go have to break the news to my rents and eat shit whoo.

3/30/2016 2 comments

Hi everybody

by kupo95 3/30/2016

written by kupo95

Im san fran but im still so sad so nervous so not ok I still feel lost .

a girl that has been staying with my in -laws says she has made no money in tahoe and she is in depression from the town and is fearfull her marriage will end becuse she is so unhappy .

she said she understood Why I went home and why I left and why Never wanted to go. Wich made me feel better she made me feel less crazy. But I felt horrbile she was going the my hell she took my backlash. I was so sorry, Im scared now […]

3/30/2016 8 comments

Attention to Attempted suicide

by kupo95 3/29/2016

written by kupo95

You better get your bunnie onesie but back here and talk with us and be ok dont go mute when there is so many who wants help thats why we are all here.

Everbody keep an eye out for her I need to bored

Love you as .

3/29/2016 14 comments

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