I miss how he made me feel important. I loved being around him. Don’t exactly know why but I did. I liked when he would come over and watch movies with me. He would stare into my eyes while he laughed at the dumbest jokes, I loved it. I don’t know what feelings I had for him really. Did I like him as a brother or something more? We used to go to the movies and to restaurants, I just loved being around him. I guess it got too weird for him. But it’s been months and I still think about him. My only wish […]
I have been ”depressed” for many years now. The ghost of suicide is perhaps my closest friend. However I try to go on. I tell myself Im like a sailboat just going where the wind blows me. I rely on no one to make me happy and to be honest Im coming ever closer to the place where being happy isnt a goal. I take every second at a time and and try to forget the second before. To me humans and animals and even trees are all the same. Whats the point of life for a tree? Yet it grows. Our challenge as humans […]