I miss my friend

I miss how he made me feel important. I loved being around him. Don’t exactly know why but I did. I liked when he would come over and watch movies with me. He would stare into my eyes while he laughed at the dumbest jokes, I loved it. I don’t know what feelings I had for him really. Did I like him as a brother or something more? We used to go to the movies and to restaurants, I just loved being around him. I guess it got too weird for him. But it’s been months and I still think about him. My only wish is that he would walk back through my door. But that’s never going to happen. It’s NEVER going to happen. I am writing this to get my mind to wrap itself around that fact. We are no longer friends, it’s OVER.