Master your emotions

I have been ”depressed” for many years now. The ghost of suicide is perhaps my closest friend. However I try to go on. I tell myself Im like a sailboat just going where the wind blows me. I rely on no one to make me happy and to be honest Im coming ever closer to the place where being happy isnt a goal. I take every second at a time and and try to forget the second before. To me humans and animals and even trees are all the same. Whats the point of life for a tree? Yet it grows. Our challenge as humans is silencing our minds, overcoming  emotions and learning  how to simply grow.