Another night crying myself to sleep, because I feel like I have no one to talk to about how unhappy I am or how left out and dull I feel. Of course people /”friends”will say “you can always talk to me about anything” Yes maybe I can talk to them but what ever I say will be used against me, rumours will spread and people will judge you. I was at a peak in life and I guess I’ve fallen down again. I literally feel like nothing. Like I’m an outsider in this world, even with family. The point of all this is […]
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Tonight My boyfriend said we should have a break. And he isn’t the easy type. He used to deal and smoke the green. But what didn’t change is if you got him mad he would take out a knife and cut you im not saying he hurt me in that way. But now Ina few days he’s going in town to finish a lad up and he’s taking a gun. I’m scared he knows that but I’m seeing him tomorrow in school what do I say… I want him back….
So 5 months ago I took an overdose of 60+pills I only told the doctors I took about 20 or so but now every time I’m in pain example cramps or headache and my mam gives me a painkiller it scares me cause it reminds me of that time and right now I’m after taking one because of a pain I think it’s my appendix not sure but I have the same feeling as I had when I took the overdose, my head pounds I can feel blood flowing through my vains, my hands get weak and my stomock feels empty and a burn starts […]
I feel so selfish that I even tried to end my life. It’s hard, some days but there’s never been a day where I have thought of doing it again. It’s too hard. It’s horrible. I hate when my parents are worried. When your stuck in hospital and little children ask you why your here and all u Gotta say Is “it doesn’t matter right now”. When doctors think ur mad and ask questions that make you feel like ur trapped and won’t be let out. And when days later you are in a physiotherapists room, and there asking you to tell them why, and […]
What’s the feeling before u over dose cause right now I’m sweating mad .shaking so much .my ears are blocked .i have blurred vision.and I feel so weak. And I don’t know how I’m typing this. I think I’ll take a nap and hopefully not wake up . Goodbye
Ever think of dying? Cause I have thought about it a few times. But have you ever thought of suicide? Always, maybe I’m just sick of being hurt or hurting others and I just think it would be great to go away from everyone and make life easier for them by ending my own life. But what will my family and friends think? Well I’m probably an imbarresment to my family, and friends, I don’t think I have any.
I can’t picture someone walking into my room and finding me in a pool of blood. What if they cared after all. And they loved me everyday but […]