It’s fucking awful when you can’t even allow yourself to be depressed without feeling like you don’t even deserve to be depressed. I would be dead by now, but I can’t stand the thought of my mom losing her oldest daughter. I give so much mentally to other people, but I can’t commit suicide, the one selfish thing I want to do.
At my sister’s 11th birthday party, she invited all of her friends to this place where you could bake a cake with fancy equipment. And she is an outgoing person, so there were 15-20 people there along with our extended family.
I had a mental breakdown in the parking lot, just complete and utter depression. When my parents got me to come inside, I locked myself in the bathroom so I wouldn’t embarrass my sister. My mom thought I was trying to kill myself again, so she got the people to unlock it and then wouldn’t let me go back in. So I spent the […]
I love fostering cats. Mostly kittens. A few months ago, I was taking care of a litter of six with their mom. The mom was great, took care of her kitties, and was super sweet. But she was in a hoarder home (specifically the mom because the kittens weren’t born there). I ended up getting sent to a hospital. But it turns out, the mom had some parasite from before. It killed one of the kittens. My mom in her eternal wisdom decided to wait a week before telling me. Because why would I care if a six week kitten that I’d loved since birth […]
Um, I know that we’re not supposed to post more than once a day. But does that go for commenting too?
Bye. I’m sorry that I got to this point. I’m just so fucked up, and the world is the same way. My parents are great. They’re amazingly supportive and everything. I wish they had a daughter that was worthy of their love. The world is just so utterly screwed. I love my cats and that’s about it. Thanks to everyone reading this. Honestly, even though you don’t know me, I’m amazed that you’re so empathetic. Thank you. I hope everything ends up better for you. Good luck, y’all.
Love, Lacey
I wish my family didn’t care about me. That would make it so much easier to end it. Just a lot of wishes and stuff. My mom cares so much and I wish I was someone that deserved her love and attention. I’m only alive for my cat, she has separation anxiety. Thanks for reading.