Ten years and a hundred sessions later and my life is no better. F— the world. Im better off dead……
Lastdaysoon
All it will take is a stretch of rope and this stupid life will be over. Better sooner than later. 🙂
After almost two weeks of hospital I don’t feel better. Suicidal ideation running nonstop. Will be in partial program starting tmrw. I decided that dec 25 will be exit day unless I find some viable solutions…..
Here I am right before the holidays and life sucks worse than ever. This time I am not going to APS. Im gonna hang myself in the garage and that’s that. I feel numb after years of anguish so this should be easy….
Went to inpatient again. The meds worked for a few months but now am in a rough patch again. Tired of dealing with a life that never seems to work out. This time I won’t ask for help. Im gonna vapor lock and leave this awful world. 🙁
Feel better after dropping the lithium. But I told my mom and her husband to lose my number. They are so full of crap. People want to run your life without footing the bill. Good luck with that.
I gotta break my already fucked up back shoveling snow because my dad is too cheap and destitute to hire someone.
These psych doctors don’t have a clue. Im done with these crappy meds and if shit hits the fan one more time im checking out.
On my way to meeting with treatment team. Wondering if they will keep me. If I tell them whats up, they sure will…..
I feel calm today. In a few hours will see my treatment team. They know I am suicidal and may want to keep me…
Anyone recognize?
Deftones
I have a meeting with my psych team tmrw. Cannot let them know my intentions. They want to but can’t help.
Plan is in effect. My family will be upset but they should have paid more attention when I was around. My friend is out of state and may take longer for her to find out. It’s for the best…
I added a profile pic. It speaks volumes….
As I struggle to stay afloat the thought of ending it all looms overhead. Friends and family oblivious to what is going on have no idea. How about when I am laying in the slab?
Woke up exhausted. Not a good start….
If it wasnt for my friend talking to me everyday I dont know how I could live through this. Outpatient helps but only to a point. I cant tell her how I really feel. It would crush her.
The next few weeks will determine if I stay or go. I’m not one of the lucky ones so getting ready in case life craters again…