I’ve got my charcoal in my closet it seems promising… I think there is about 4 of us on here that are speaking like we are going to commit in a short time from now. I can’t pick a day… I don’t know what to do I still wish I could just get my shotgun and drive into the woods to shoot myself in the brain, but I’ve got 2 DUIs and I haven’t been able to drive since oct 2016, lord knows that’s the only thing standing between me and my suicide!! I would have been dead probably by the end of ‘16 had that not happened… originally I had planned for many years to kill myself the day I turned 18 which was August 1, 2012. But I ended up not being able to afford a gun, then I was hospitalized now if I buy one I have to find a private seller and I can’t go to the sales outlets. I’m so unhappy that I am still here, all I wish for is to end my life….
I don’t like this time of year either. It really sucks because if you’re yourself, people call you a jerk, or a Scrooge and I learned to just LITERALLY THROW THEIR GIFT AT THEM. I don’t do subtle, because they didn’t earn it. I don’t recommend it, but it’s bloody hilarious to do.
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I’ve got my charcoal in my closet it seems promising… I think there is about 4 of us on here that are speaking like we are going to commit in a short time from now. I can’t pick a day… I don’t know what to do I still wish I could just get my shotgun and drive into the woods to shoot myself in the brain, but I’ve got 2 DUIs and I haven’t been able to drive since oct 2016, lord knows that’s the only thing standing between me and my suicide!! I would have been dead probably by the end of ‘16 had that not happened… originally I had planned for many years to kill myself the day I turned 18 which was August 1, 2012. But I ended up not being able to afford a gun, then I was hospitalized now if I buy one I have to find a private seller and I can’t go to the sales outlets. I’m so unhappy that I am still here, all I wish for is to end my life….
I’m sorry to read that this is where your thoughts are(/were?) at.
I hope you find some reason to live on, and that your life improves, becomes more bearable, and even happy at times.
Please take care. You matter.
I don’t like this time of year either. It really sucks because if you’re yourself, people call you a jerk, or a Scrooge and I learned to just LITERALLY THROW THEIR GIFT AT THEM. I don’t do subtle, because they didn’t earn it. I don’t recommend it, but it’s bloody hilarious to do.