this evening i randomly got in the worst mood ever. i became dangerously violent and angry, and i was so close to ending it. i sat up in my room for a good hour or 2 sobbing my eyes out, basically letting out 10 years of anger. between being used as a dishrag in my what used to be best friend’s life, and from being pushed down by my family. this isn’t the first time that i’ve randomly became depressed, but this is the first time it’s ever been like this. i can’t even explain to you how i felt. and i can promise you […]
Too deep to hurt,
yet too painful to ignore,
i try to forget,
but there’s blood on my floor.
screaming inside,
but mouth swollen into a smile,
i sing a song,
cause i know I’ll be here awhile.
it stings and it burns,
like fire among us,
but don’t worry at all,
i won’t make a fuss.
if you see me lie here,
just laugh and walk away,
because some things are just too fast to see,
and for a mistake you will pay.
I’m shattering inside,
a heart of broken glass,
yet with each new strike,
the pain starts to pass.
as I’ve told you before,
my mouth is […]
my close friend nick has recently ODed on prescription drugs. he first told me that he thought it would help his headache if he took a few extra, but that was before i found out he did it on purpose. usually nick is full of energy sure, but he also has an addiction to burning his body and also cutting gashes into his palms. as i am a cutter, yes i admit.. but it just makes me upset knowing nick ruins his beautiful body and has trouble telling me why. i completely respect this, as he doesn’t see his father, and his mother has told […]