I will fight this fight and i will win. I wont fail cus i have a big God. Bigger than my problems and all my challenges.
I just can’t explain how f**** up I feel right now. I actually recovered from this thoughts, went out, fell in love and got treated like crap. I ll never forget my shitty life. I cannot find taste in any food and my website is left unupdated. Feeling sick already with a serious headache. I just don’t know why I fell in love again, I just don’t know why I left the suicide project. I never even felt this bad wen I WS in here. Rocketmanpls do say something. I ve know you for a long time as a shoulder, pls do let me lean […]
my wisdom tooth have been aching me for quite some time now. the pain got unbearable and i decided to remove the tooth. unfortunately for me all medical health workers were on strike so the two student dentists couldnt get their hands on enough anasthetic to douse the pain. turned out they applied the little one they had wrongly and it only had little effect on the pain. i almost dropped dead while the two dumb student dentist tried to remove the tooth, my mouth windpipe and even my nose was filled with blood, they kept on hitting and hammering for two hours before the […]
Wished i could get off the bed right now, but i cant, why? Because i just cant. Its so warm and cozzy here. Wanna join me?
No i cant, i am too busy planning my demise.
Ok no problem, hey! Will you join us at Bob’s place today?
No i cant, cant you see, i just want to kill myself, i just want to jump off a bridge or stick a big fat knife right above my navel, can you help me?
Hell no, what do you want to go about jumping off bridges and sticking knife in you navel for?
I am depressed
you re depressed, i […]
I feel a little less than something when i think of how badly i need to die when others so badly wish to live
i am not going to argue with anyone but all i am saying is. its kinda hard to be suicidal when you ve got life from the fist class
i ve finally resolved that staying alive has to be done in a better way and hiding and living under peoples shado isnt any way to live
i know i ve vowed never to come back here but here i am. i feel so empty. i just dont have anything to live for and i ve got great expectations. but this feelings is rendering me useless. cus anytime i actually impress myself with something, its always not good enough for them. they feel i could do better so they conden my every efforts. but how am i going to do better when i always feeling useless.
hey gather around people, lets snap this new year a bright picture
last year had it downs, but who care? jeez! ama dance, and that is just because i ve lived through the woods,
i ve seen the worst the world could throw at me,
i still have my scars to that effect,
but i just feel so happy today.
why?
cus i was able to forget all my past mistakes, ,my present cash profile nd every other attack from this ugly planet,
now i feel safe in being down in the mud,
and hey lest i forget, i am now two years old in […]
i know i should quit this job,i know its dehumanising,
but what i dont know is how to go on, without a job that seem to br the only well paid job in town, so i just sit back and keep bottling this shit,
Being depressed is all i know.. Being happy is no fun at all, putting on a big grin and singing the ol classic on birthdays isnt no fun too. Dressing all gay and fantabulous with all the colourful nonsuchs draped on isnt no fun to me. I like the depressed part of me. I like hearing people whisper behind me saying all the unpleasants of life about me. It does me much good. I do not entertain the noise and joyous brangz and drangz that is associated with playing children around me. It distracts me from thinking about me. I just like plain dark solitude. […]
to me sadness is me being. sick, bankrupt,homeless, rejected by every successful relative that could just help with words or mats, talented and filled with so many brilliant ideas without a single sponsor or investor, carrying with me the consequence of my mistakes. and rotting away silently with all this gift and curses with no one to tell goodbye.
do we all have to be so sad?
Thanks to all those who felt their big philosophies and scientific theories could upturn my conviction. Thanks to all those who denounced his existence and helped to isolate themselves from their maker. Thanks to all. And even more..
It may not please you or even add to your depression to know that i will never forget him or leave him. Thanks again. To one and all.
This aint no religeous site or forum. But y’all should please be reminded that God does exists and he still oversea the state of things in this planet. The world is too small to absolve him. Your present situation on earth would stand irelevant compared to what lies in the great beyond. You shouldnt give up on God. Cus he is and would always be. Could anyone please tell me something. If it is possible for humans to exist with a special intelligence that supercedes that of all other creations why do we find it hard to believe that a more supreme and supernatural being […]
Ever wondered why lesswill aint posting no suicidal stories?. Well lets just say something beyond the ordinary happened to me. I met someone that placed a light at the end of the tunnel before me. I know sometimes life gets so hard and we find it difficult to look beyond the present. We find it hard to see any light beyond the tunnel.. But there is a light. Yes there sure is.. My story is an evidence as to that fact. I have always thought that my life would be better if i had everything,if i had a girlfriend a caring family and a stable […]
I dont think i am depressed anymore.. I am now happily single,i eat well and i am now a bodybuilder.. Wow i think being single is the best thing that ve ever happened to me.. And put to that i now have a new bestie. Still trying to avoid the old one. I think the blocks of my life is falling into place and i am so grateful to God for it..”BABA” thank you.
st.lesswill
Despite all the thoughts i had of dying without you, the pieces of my heart still remain patched together like a never breaking glass frame. You didnt hurt me. You just left a space in me so wide that would take time to refill. Its ok if we never meet again. I am ok as i am. Just wanted to let you know that my life is hard but precious
St.lesswill
Numb and empty with no hope of a change of status quo. Knowing fully well that you may make it if you try but being so fucking lazy to get off the freaking bed. Yea thats me. Saint lesswill. Incapacitated by a love long gone
I am still alive, told y’all that it would take a power much more supernatural and sophisticated to keep me this way. Well you ve got it there.i am still breathing.
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