i thought. . .
i hoped. . .
i wished. . .
you broke. . .
you crushed. . .
you hurt. . .
i didn’t. . .
i wanted. . .
i really. . .
you didn’t. . .
you hated. . .
you thought. . .
I wish. . .
i don’t think you understand
i don’t think you know
i know you don’t understand
i don’t know if you know
i think you don’t
hopefully not
even though i do want to tell you
but you can’t know
you just
you can’t
im sorry
Maybe it doesn’t…
Maybe I don’t…
I wish though…
I hoped…
I thought…
I wish you knew….
Dearest Dear Friends and Family Hello Friends Dear Family
To Whom It May Concern:
Where do I start with this letter? Maybe I should start at the beginning… It’s a good place to start, I guess. For the past five months I have been sad, depressed, suicidal. For the past five months I have guided myself, comforted myself, and hurt myself. I have a friend. It’s a he. I know. Woah. Don’t go all protective on me though, because he has helped me through this journey and I hope he still does. For the past five months there have […]
Tears;
Droplets upon our faces
Screams;
Loud, unheard voices
Whispers;
Little nothings thrown into the wind
Smiles;
One fakes these
Laughs;
A different sound for each of us
Knives;
To cut away the pain on our skin
Pills;
A way to escape this reality of our world
Eyes;
Dark and dull, observing, watching, glaring
Ears;
They hear the insults, the screams, the voices
Mouths;
They talk, they whisper, they scream
Hearts;
They’re broken throughout the day
Why should I keep living? Why should I keep waiting? Why should I keep going? Why should I go on? Why should I keep screaming? Why should I keep crying? Why?
So many questions
Not enough answers
So many wounds
Not enough bandages
So many tears
Not enough tissues
So many pieces
Not enough tape
So many scars
Not enough memories
So much sadness
Not enough happiness
So much hate
Not enough love
So much hurt
Not enough comfort
So much pain
Not enough pleasure
So much negativity
Not enough positivity
Do you see how much I need you right now?
You’re the one that I love and I’m saying goodbye.
Will you let her go?
You lift me up just so I fall.
I wish you were here.
I’m barely hanging on.
I learned to live, half alive.
Just one chance, just one breath; Just in case there’s one left.
No you don’t know what it’s like.
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do.
Songs: When You’re Gone, Say Something, Let Her Go, Reckless Heart, Wish You Were Here, Behind Those Hazel Eyes, Jar of Hearts, Far Away, Welcome To My Life, The Reason
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXy6JElmgHU
Hi Guys,
It’s seems like it’s been a while since I’ve talked to you. Doesn’t it? It’s been only a week…
How are you guys? Hopefully better than I am…
How am I? Physically: Sore Mentally: Broken
My physical state… Is just sore… I’m so exhausted these days… I’m tired and I just don’t know what to do… My headaches aren’t that constant or daily, but I do get them often… I have more panic attacks these days… I have more break downs these days… I don’t know guys… I just don’t know anymore.
My mental state… […]
I need you right now
Because you’re all I have
I’m tired of people lying
I’m tired of people hurting me
I’m tired of getting caught in this mess
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of being broken
I’m tired of people breaking me
I’m tired of people saying hurtful things
I’m tired of living
You don’t see
And it’s killing me
I can’t move on.
I can’t let go.
I can’t stop it.
I can’t stop me.
I can’t go on.
I can’t stop hurting.
I can’t stop pain.
I can’t stop breaking.
I can’t stop crying.
I can’t stop hoping.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYatfNZ20wY
😀 Enjoy
Here I lay
On the floor.
Here I stay
Within a door.
Here I lie
In the silence.
Here I die
In the darkness.
Here I scream
My voice piercing.
Here I dream
My mind wandering.
Here I talk
Nothing to say.
Here I walk
Nowhere to go.
Here I call
None will listen.
Here I fall
None will hear.