hey guys
I have missed you guys
sadly I haven’t missed the thoughts they havent left me one bit. for weeks thoughts of death have been in my head and they wont go away. I am not sure if I wanna die or if its just the thoughts that are making me believe that I wanna die.
I just keep getting more and more reasons to die and not stay around here.
what the fuck am I supposed to do
I had a good day with my friends and being silly and laughing at how he was messing with another friend of mine but damn the evil thoughts of cutting are strong I found a good place to cut or well I have never cut before so yeah. I sadly wish a friend would text me. He saves me all the time with out knowing he does. I mean he’s the shit there’s no one on this earth that tell me I am pretty or makes me feel specai. I wish I could say what the hell I wanna say but I keep it in […]
For a while I have been wanting to cut my arm and I am going swimming tomorrow so I can’t and it’s really anoying I just want this feeling to go away.
Why do I always have to think of my flaws. I mean I can list a lot but I won’t but I am really getting tired of sitting hear at night just thinking of shit that i seam to never be able to become good at. 🙁 I wanna be happy again.
I can’t stop thinking of wanting to cut 🙁 I can feel the pain and see the lines all I wanna do tonight is cut. I just wish I had a reason.
I was at work today and I woke up late so I didn’t have breakfast anyways I had gotten some m&ms from a friend and a coworker had said he was eaten them. Well knowing me u don’t wanna fuck with me wile I am hungery. So I didn’t mean too but I said out loud “you better not touch my m&ms you A-hole” and so they took that for a ride and would not let it go. They even started to call me it. By the end of the day I was so ready to punch the shit out of them. And I have […]
So its coming up really soon that my mom will now be dead for two years. That’s still really hard to think of, i still cry over her and think that i was a shitty daughter to her. I mean if i wasn’t a good daughter why should the fuck should i be a mom or matter of fact even be alive. Why should i continue to be on this earth if i am not with the one person that i miss and love and still need? Yes i am twenty years old and i need to start to be on my own. It kills […]
the first person i see in the comments area is donnieblackqwert
is that really you?
Do you even remember me?
Ok so I haven’t been in a while but I am really tired of this feeling of wanting to cut. I don’t really care anymore I know my friends do but shouldn’t I care the most after all it’s my body. 🙁 umm I don’t like staying up for no reason.
I hope everyone’s doing ok
It makes me sick to my stomach what people do to animals.
If I had a say anyone who ever hurt an aminal would be dead.
Mom I wish I did more for you I wish there was something that i could have done to make you stop. That. Night I came home and saw you drink for the first time and instead of being scared I wish I could have made you to stop. If there was anything that I could have done I regret not doing. I feel like failed you I feel like I was not the daughter you deserved to have. I hate myself for doing what you needed to get better. I should be dead and you should still be alive. You should have that house […]
i was pretty when i was little and now i am just ugly. it doesnt matter how many times someone says “your pretty” it has never stuck to me. i have and always felt ugly. it kills me because i think no guy will like me. I am one of the girls a guy will have sex with just to do it not to care about them but just fuck someone that’s one reason why i wont do it.
i hate this feeling. i honestly feel like i will be lonely forever. every time a get a boyfriend they dump me right b4 a holiday […]
hi have a questions for people that cut? how do u clean your wounds. i just run water of them. what do u guys do.
i did this last night