They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result each time. I always have felt like I’m different then everyone else, but I never truly believed that I’m crazy.. Well, not loony-bin crazy, at least. I just think for the most part I’m a product of my environment, and as the years have gone on and I’ve been through so much pain and bullshit, I am starting to see the steady deterioration of my mental health. God, I wish I could turn back time. I mean, at 13, I knew I’d been abused as […]
I am completely without any hope right now, and I don’t know what to do. I just haven’t been on here for a couple months and I figured might as well let someone out there know, let it out even if its to a multitude of strangers. That’s fitting anyway, considering I am constantly feeling like I’m walking through life a ghost, and that no one can see me or hear me scream and I am honestly believing I really am crazy now. I miss my best friend, I miss how it was easy. And I keep beating myself up over it…. I just want […]
I have been in a rocky, controlling relationship with a man I have been head over heels in love with for about a year now. He was never very nice, always controlling, very jealous, and extremely verbally abusive… A tall, sexy, tattooed from head to toe punk rocker, I fell in love immediately. we both have had hard lives, and he was from New York in Oregon (where I’m from) because he knocked a girl up in New York who was from Oregon, and he moved to Oregon to be the father. They didn’t work out. Anyway, we started a relationship, had a lot of […]