My first attempt I took 26 or 29,I can’t remember but I can bearly take ten without getting the feeling of throwing up.I have a long way to go.I feel high & my stomach Is starting to hurt,that means that It’s doing It’s job
I’m on my six advil.I’m going slow so I don’t throw It back up.I feel kinda high,I hope It stays like that & hopefully I feel no pain.I’m sorry to everyone.Sorry I wasen’t good enough,I’m sorry for all the pain I have caused anyone.I’m sorry for everything.I’m crying right now cause I had dreams.I’ve always wanted a kid.Always always wanted a baby girl;(I wanted to name her Savannah Miranda Espinoza.Damn I feel the advils.I need to hurry up and get out the house If I do pass cause I don’t want my sister to see my body.Fuck Is this really It or am I just […]
Why did I have to bring her down with me??She had everything.I made her life worse.Because of me she’s not at her house anymore:(I finally know what Ima do.I start on the third so Ima work for a month In a half.Give some money to my mom and give the rest to her.As for me.I feel sorry for the maid that walks In my room.Until then I have stay to make things right.
I wanna cut my wrist so fucking back right now but I have this job thing on the third & I dont want people seeing them.I really dont want to cut on my thies or anywhere else.Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck I have a pencil sharpener!!
Razors&drugs cause a n+«»a fucking depressed
I just found out that my ex got married.I’d be lying If I said I’m over her.I’m happy for her tho.I wish her and her husband the best.I just wish I could talk to him to tell him to not fight back cause that Is a fight you will never win haha.their married now,ofcourse he know’s not to haha.I’m just depressed on how things turned out.I should be the one getting married!!haha.I’m the nicest bf she has ever had!!Every other bf she’s had Is bad!!Like her husband has a tattoo on his face.If your gonna get a tattoo on your face then get tear drops […]
A month In a half ago,I almost overdosed on pcp.I smoked two wet sticks by myself.I could’ve stopped on the first one but I didn’t feel high enough.That day I had the truck pretty much all day with my friends getting high,drunk and on wet.My friends and I smoked six wet sticks that day.I was pretty messed up driving and stuff but I could still maintain,even long drives on the freeway that night.I went back to the house.I was cleaning the truck and I saw that my friend left to wet sticks In there so I started to smoke them. After the second one I […]
There Is one thing that will keep me here and It’s pretty pathetic.Well actually two.Getting back with her will give me the “want” to wanting to live cause I’d live happily with her.The other thing Is the number one draft pick.(Feel free to laugh haha)If the Texans don’t pick Johnny Manziel I don’t wanna go on.This reminds me of the superbowl last year.If the ravens didn’t win,I didn’t wanna see tomorrow.Being from Houston and being a huge Aggie fan,I would love to see Johnny touchdown In a Texans uniform not no damn Teddy Bridgewater or Jadeveon Clowney.For the record Matt Schaub Is my franchise qb […]
I cut myself twice today and the addiction starts.
“Success Is failure turn upside down
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when It seems afar
So stick to the fight with you’re hardest hit
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit”
Good thing-I feel like I’m starting all over.Time to do things right.
Bad things-Sure there a lot of beautiful girls but none of them are you.None of them have your eyes,none of them have you voice.I thought my first love had a beautiful voice but then I heard you and now sometimes before I go to sleep I hear the voicemails you left me just to hear you.I have yet to meet a girl that’s like you.You were everything I looked In a girl and more.I’m not young anymore.I want to settle down.I could honestly see myself settling down her.She used to always worry about her […]
I see people on here postinq poems and sonqs.Well here’s Houston’s finest.Not your type of sonq,ssssoooo.Listen to what there actually sayinq.
Z-ro My Story
Yo man,what’s up Ro man you trippinq son.Put the qun down dawq It ain’t even worth all that man let’s talk about […]
Spend all day In a trap house doinq the obvious.Couple of my friends,two hoes and me.
Do you know what It feels like to be surrounded but Isolated???Like If everyone around you Is there but your casper the qhost.I left without lettinq anyone know and no call,no txt sayinq hey why’d you leave?Nothinq.Theres so many fraud ass people In Houston It’s crazy.I wanna cut sssssoooooo BAD!!!!! but I threw away my razor two months aqo and any new razor Is just qonna leave a scar that Isen’t qonna qo away!
I just wanna drop everythinq and start a new life.
“Fuck a friend I dont even trust my own shadow”
SWHTX,BST5600
Holidays,they SUCK NOW!!!!What ever happen to qoinq to my cousins house?What ever happen to one of my family members dressinq up like santa clause?Now every christmas I qet dropped off a block away from house so I can have some time to sober up.I qet home and Its time to open presents.After that everyones up for another hour and then they fall asleep while Im alwake on youtube smokinq a sweet In relief that Its over
Oh wait theres new years,damn It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There Is so much pressure on my heart I’m surprised I’m not dead cause of It…..sadly.
When the only thinq you have left Is pride and then when thats taken away from you what then?I keep thinkinq back In April (a few days before my birthday) my friend made a comment about his qirl and I and I told him *****’s just *****.He qot pissed and his qirl wanted to “fiqht” me.After that we started drivinq back to our side and It was dead silent.He went to my house to drop me off,Instead I qot out the car and he followed me.We talked.I’m tellinq him dude […]