Haven’t been on since Lucy4 was beinq well herself towards me.People I’m on suicide forum so why In the hell do you care about my qrammer?Did I mention that I don’t want to live anymore?So yeah everytime Lucy4 finds It necessary to say do you fear the letter g.First of all arn’t you Shaolin qumby?You know that asshole that says the exact same thinq you say to me.After the thinqs you said to me on Teenqirl’s post,I couldn’t take It anymore.I cried.I cried cause you won’t leave me the fuck alone!!!Even tho Teenqirl makes me want to live,you made me realize that It’s just not […]
So I just qot off the phone with my old bestfriend,I miss her!!!!!I wanna qive her the biqqest huq!!!So I told her about Teenqirl and this site.I told her to click my name and read my posts If she wants to know the real me.After readinq my embarrassinq Wrestlemania post,out of nowhere she starts cryinq and tells me “why would you do that?”Why would you cut your self?”She saw the cuttinq picture that I have.I couldn’t really say anythinq cause my friend was riqht next to me so I told her I’ll call her back.Her reaction made me feel horrible like fuck I should just […]
Lucy4 your qonna love this.
Lowkey slash my version of the sonq….”Every verse (sentence) should be treated like the Mona Lisa Is”.
You should care more about what I write about my life Instead of me “crappinq on qrammer” or whatever you said.Where Is the old SP?You know the one where people didn’t judqe me on how I spell………..
Whatever It’s okay I still qot love for everyone on here.Main objective (for me edleast) make everyone feel Important on here cause well I’m on suicide forum.
No matter how much yall meet me with hate I still have love for yall.I had to find a suicide forum to know […]
No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No!
If you were to ask me would I want to live If I knew I would fulfill my dream do you know what I would say?I quess you can quess,NO!!!
SP sucks without my SP buddy Distantroad!So It’s almost been a year since I’ve been on this site.I made a really qood friend on here.That person Is Teenqirl18.(Teenqirl I’m sorry for puttinq our stuff out there).We started talkinq In March.We […]
I’m turninq eiqhteen on the 21 but I don’t think I can make It.My birthday Is cominq up so shouldn’t I be happy?The whole day I’ve literally been depressed.I told my social worker that I need to qo back to the hospital.She said no It’s about time I qet my life toqether,first I need to qet my tattoos removed and qet my GED.She doesn’t understand that I want help.I’m tired of this depression.I’m tired of hidinq my cuts.I want to die.Tomorrow Is when I’ll be leavinq.I was qonna do It today but I just realized that I want to write a suicide note.I’m take the […]
Wow It was aaawwwesome!Wrestlinq Is one of the thinqs that keeps me qoinq.I’ve been watchinq It since I was nine.When I first laid my eyes on It,I fell In love.This years WrestleMania was qood!The thinq that I didn’t like was that The Rock won.Uqh he makes movies so who cares If he would’ve lost?Cena wrestles every week.That was The Rock’s old like and It Is Cena’s life so why’d they make him lose?And Sheamus,I don’t care that he won I just wished that I would’ve seen a match Instead of Daniel kissinq cute Aj and then turn around and qet kicked In the face.Triple H […]
Nothinqleft I know what you mean,why can’t they see that I’m dyinq Inside?One qirl that I met for one day felt the same way as I did and still couldn’t see that I hide the real me by smilinq and lauqhinq all them damn time.I woke up today feelinq that It’s not even worth me wastinq another day,I’m just a waste of air.I decided to start cuttinq on my wrist aqain.I realized that I have so many vains stickinq out and that I can end It whenever I want so why am I still here?Is It possible that I don’t wanna die yet?No.I don’t […]
I feel like crap cause of a person I had related to wants nothinq to do with me:/Anyone wanna wasste their time and talk to a looser?
I saw It twice!The first time I saw It,everythinq she said made my heart had this wierd feelinq.It’s cause I can relate to her alot.Seeinq It made me feel like I have no hope tho.It made me cry a little.It kinda makes me wanna qo to rehab Instead of those no qood psychiatric hospitals.Well edleast they don’t help me.Even tho her music Isen’t even close to the music I listen to,hearinq a little of It yesterday makes me wanna qive her music a try.I like artist like Z-ro and Spm that talk about there life.Anyway I hope she qave yall hope.
Stay stronq.
Cali-no swaq I did qet your email.
To Shaolin and Gaara.lol Gaara you arn’t on my shit list.Shaolin I was qonna comment on teenqirl (aka Cali-no swaq hahaha;))and I stoped readinq the comments after you said people that spell wronq have a special place In hell.Damn you hate me that much?and yeah I’m pretty sensitive but damn that’s cold.I’m sorry that you couldn’t pronouce r but you don’t have to take It out on me.And sorry If I qot the definition wronq but hey edleast I care enouqh to know about It.Dude I’ve been threw more shit then you have In your entire life but hey that’s just thuq life […]
I’m sorry I acted like an ass but yall have to admit,what yall told me was kinda mean.
Gaara you told me that my keyboard was broken or In other words I’m stupid,you actually thouqth I wouldn’t qet mad.Your tellinq me to follow the rules but tho your the one that wants to start an arquement.
Shaolin you said I fear the letter g.Aqain you honestly thouqht I wouldn’t qet mad?You Insulted me.Dude worry about IMPORTANT stuff like whats qoinq on on the war In Iraq.Mostly everyone knows more about the Kardashian’s then the war on terror.People care about who’s qoinq to be elminated In American Idol […]
Holly bearly posted “kiss me before we o.d” and It already has 223 views,that’s crazy!I’m sorry I know I always tell you that.If everyones on here then talk!Don’t be shy.Obviously alot of people are on riqht now.Im pretty sure someone I haven’t even seen Is on.I thouqht there were only about 50 people on this site lol but I quess there’s more so let’s talk!
So my closest friend qot locked up on Friday.I didn’t even qet a chance to hanq out with him and say bye before he left:(He’s qettinq locked up for six months.He’s only been out for four months what the heck!The last time he qot locked up he was suppose to do six months but the system qave him nine months,fuck the system!How are you qonna take someone that’s close to me?All of because he violated probation,It’s not like he did a felony!My friend Is a 52 hoova Crip so I already know someone In there Is qonna set-trip on him and there qonna start plexinq and my friend Is […]
So yall can stop qettinq confused or just beinq assholes.I can spell!No one played a trick on me.I mean to put q Instead of g,oh wait did I make another mistake by puttinq a capitalized i.Oh that makes me sssssoooo stupid!If you have nothinq to say about what I put down then don’t be an ass and say “hey don’t you mean to say good”Uqh that qets on my nerves!I know how to spell so hop off my dick about that and qet a life!
I think It’s pretty amazinq.Like just the thouqht of a celeberty qoinq threw what we qo threw Is just like wow,you have countless people that supported you before as a role model and now that she came out as beinq anorxic and beinq a cutter everybodys like If she can qo threw with that,then anyone can.I don’t aqree with that but I qotta admit she does qive me hope.Who’s qonna watch the special about her on Tuesday?lol.And like I’m qlad It’s not Miley or Selena or uuuuuhhhhhh?……???????Miranda! but yeah I hope to qet some qood copinq skills and just alot of thinqs that can help me […]
So I’m startinq to let the real me out.I miss sayinq bi power on my status on Myspace lol.(Like three years aqo)I don’t know If I am bisexual.I’ve refused to answer that question In the past year and a half.Am I still attracted to boys???I don’t know,I just don’t know but I love qays tho!Yall judqe to much tho.It started when I was In eiqhth qrade.I started to qo boy huntinq with my old bestfriend causse I didn’t want her and my ex to do It and I quess I qrowed a feelinq for them.I only told three close friends,One was my old bestfriend.Couple days later two […]
So back to the me showinq my social worker my scars.Well now I showed my scars to my caseworker and he’s basically tellinq me that If I’m not qoinq to the hospital that I should qo to depression meetinq’s/qroups If there Is any.Do any of yall attend qroups for depresion?I really wanna qo so I can qo back to school and learn Instead of start smokinq In the morninq.Next week I’m qoinq to see my theropist to see any other alternatives.So to my oriqinal question does anyone qo any depression qroups???
So I just cut like twenty-minutes aqo listeninq to I’m not alriqht (by Sanctus real).I cutted deep but for some reason I bearly bleed and I came out as some baby line’s.Some much for lookinq at my scars to remind me that what I’m qoinq threw Is hard.Alot of people want to stop cuttinq but I like It,It makes me feel qood Inside.I recently relapsed:(I even smoked two hour’s before a biq event happened at my Church.I’m a horiibe person for continuinq to smoke.All I want Is to be loved!It’s the best feelinq In the world.I still remember the feelinq when me and my ex would […]