My family are the only people I can count on. If I ever left this world my mother and sister would be broken beyond repair. No matter how much I think about the relief of leaving this burden called life, I don’t want to hurt the only people who gave a fuck about me. When people told me that I shouldn’t be alive because of the way I look, my mom still smiled in my face and hugged me everyday. I feel ashamed I’m not a better son. My mom deserved a son that’s talented, charming, and handsome But she’s stuck with me haha
I’ve been looking for a place that I can get this off my chest for YEARS. I truly think I have the strongest self hatred anyone has ever had. From the time I first started school as a child all the way to when I graduated I was fucked with A LOT for the way I looked. I used to be obese but I lost almost 100Ib two years ago. I was an easy target for bullies, and girls would just laugh in my face and tell me how fucking ugly I was on a daily basis. My life at home wasn’t any better. I […]